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2009-02-03T12:57:00.004+07:00

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Sankt Gallen: Chapter 4 - Sancti

2008-02-06T05:49:00.000+07:00

- COMING SOON -

Sneak Peek:

Sankt Gallen: Chapter 3 - Sausages, Dogs, and Snow

2008-02-05T06:52:00.000+07:00

St.Gallen - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/St._Gallen

My first morning here was superbly beautiful. Coz of...It's SNOWING!!..I have seen snow before but not the flaky flakes comes down from the sky. But this one now for real..flakes coming down from the sky. OMG!! Zuu Schone!!!

And my neighbourhood became like this:

Yup. I then went to Zhengyuan's and we went for groceries. MIGROS our lifesaver - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Migros

Everything here is zuu teuer (expensive!!) One meal costs u around CHF 8 (S$ 10 or Rp 64rb). But don't worry! There is this brand called M-Budget. It is a MIGROS's line. So, they have everything but in cheaper price and of course uglier packaging. (http://www.aquaclic.ch/pictures/00-aquaclic/aquaclics-individuelle/supermarket-m-budget-migros.jpg - sth like that)

And everywhere you go here, you can always see people walking dogs. They bring their dogs everywhere even inside of the airport and bus. And there are so many types of dog here. Really makes me wanna have one too.

This one I saw it in front of the Migros Supermarket. It looked so calm and wise. I dunno why I imagined him as Gandalf in LOTR doggy version. Haha.

We went also to a hill to see the whole St.Gallen. It was amazing. As pictures paint more than thousand words. So here it goes.

And *narcissistic* I kinda admire my photography skill. Talent I guess. Hohoho. More pics, check my facebook mate.

We went to a carnival too here. There was this town celebration where everyone dressed up like halloween and gathered in the Marktplatz here. There are marching bands and pasar malam as well. So lively. Here is a pic of a cute cute bear family..*kawaiii desune*..

And funnily..I saw sausages everywhere. Like literally every food kiosk must have sth that has sausage in it. Bratwurst. A big thick sausage. Even in restaurants or market, sausages are basically everywhere. That's why we then had our own sausages!!! Yeah!!! Kudos to Adrian, Michelle, ZhengYuan, and me!

"..gives us today our daily bread..."

Sankt Gallen: Chapter 2 - Flug

2008-02-05T05:55:00.000+07:00

When I arrived in Changi, it was a dull friday morning. Accompanied by my sausage roll from breadtalk, I walked around looking for people around my age taking the same flight. None.

'Ok then,' I said to myself. Then I took off in a crammed A330. No personal entertainment.

'Ok then', I said to myself. Then I went dozing off (Thx to not sleeping the night before!!!).

'We will land in Doha International Airport in 15 minutes', an Arabic accented voice said.

This was Doha in Sandstorm. I couldn't even see the sky!

The airport was quite boring. It was small. Slightly larger than Ngurah Rai. Small DFS. And..NO MONEY CHANGER AT ALL!!..So, I said to myself, 'Ok then.'

Flight continued...

This was the view from the plane above Switzerland! So pretty! Everything was icy white. And it looked like just beneath us a few feet. I think because it was a high terrain of mountain area. So high it must be.

The flight was still boring..'Ok then,' again I said.

And Zurich Flughafen (Airport in German) finally! It turned out to be quite small and modest unlike the grandeur Changi or even Soekarno-Hatta.

Zurich Flughafen (all the u should have umlaut)
This was the checking in counters. Above restaurants. And...that's all. The gates were at the different blocks where you had to take a underground train. But yeah, not fancy. It was just like that. 'Ok then...'

Luckily, I found a someone who was going to St.Gallen as well. He brought a red passport. He had a large bulk of luggages. And...he was an SMU student! Yay! ZhengYuan. We went to buy the train tix..and...

There!!! Can you see it?! St.Gallen. OMG I was so excited! The train was just like a Jkt-Bdg or Jkt-Yogya train 1st class. Not bad.

I then took a cab from the station to my place. I think I got cheated coz I paid CHF 12 and it was so freaking near. But nevermind...I am RICH *wow...self-consoling..joking peepz..but still..CHF 12 T_T*

And here I am..Sankt Gallen...A town of sausages, dogs, and snow...

Sankt Gallen: Chapter 1 - Gilstead 50F

2008-02-03T16:51:00.000+07:00

Jan 31 - 11.27 pm

Me: Aaa!!!..5 more hours..*rummaging through a 30kg big blue luggage*

Feb 1 - 01.09 am

Siska: Nest, kamu kykny tidur dulu aj dch. Matanya ud item bgt.
Me: Masak seh? *kucek2 mata sambil pergi k kamar mandi*
ASTAGA!! *kaget melihat muka ndiri yg kayak tanned panda*
*Tp tetep ga tenang n balik rummaging my 30kg luggage*

02.01 am

Me: Theo..jangan tidur ya ampe gw berangkat. *seenakny nyuruh org ga tidur*
Theo: Iya..*pasrah dan iba melihat mata gw*
Me: *Balik ke the 30kg luggage*

02.20 am

Me: I cannot take it. *tidur d kamar sementara gw tadi nyuruh org supaya jgn tidur bwat nungguin gw..gome..pikiran tetep masi k 30kg luggage gw*

04.00 am

Alarm: *Rrrrr Rrrr*
Me: *diem ga mao bangun*
Theo: *Nest..bangun..*
Me: *diem ga mao bangun*
Alarm: *Rrrr Rrrr*

04.28 am

Me: AARGHHHH!!! *sambil jalan k kamar mandi dan tak lupa melirik 30kg luggage gw*

05.07 am

Me: dadagh smua..*minta peluk and terutama minta tolong angkatin the 30kg luggage..hihi*

05.08 am

Me: *di taksi menelpon rummie* ...
Theo: ... *stengah tertidur*
Me: khawatir neh..
Theo: tenang lah..
Me: ...
Theo: ...
Me: khawatir gw..
Theo: ...tenang lah..enjoy aja..
Me: ...
Theo: ...
Me: khawatir neh..
Theo: ...
*repeat*
*anw the 30kg luggage was in the trunk fyi*

05.33 am

Cabdriver: $25
Me: Can help me taking out my luggage...
Cabdriver: *sigh*

Sankt Gallen: Prologue - Me back!

2008-02-03T16:39:00.000+07:00

Yup..as the title says..I am going to blog again. Why? *Good question*

Coz..I am now in SWITZERLAND!!
I am on exchange program in St.Gallen University, St. Gallen - Zurich.

Let's the story begins..

Before that, I would like to thank these wonderful people for staying with me throughout:

Dear Lord for giving me the opportunity to go on exchange.
Papa Mama for the fund. Haha. For everything.
BGanks (U know who u are) for all those wackymemories (esp Noci's pics) back in Jakarta.
Gilstead 50F.Co for taking care the house. Haha. PS: Mako, thx for the last conversation we had.
SMU Chamber Choir for the wonderful concert just before I left.
SMU friends.
And lastly, my cold and introvert roomie (hehe..xp) who stayed up the whole nite to give me moral support.

Satoe

2007-08-08T14:56:00.001+07:00

Satoe. Ya, satoe. Gw menjadi pemilik rumah satoe-satoenya saat ini d sg. Napa? Krn pada pulang ke Indo semua.

Si Kribo
Si kribo ini ud pulang dari bulan Mei. Awalnya dya mao lamaan d sg. Nunggu temennya dateng k sg trus shopping bareng trus baru pulang bareng. Hedon nian memang. Tp ibu mana yang tak panik melihat pengeluaran anak seperti ini. Diungsikannya lah pulang sebelum jatuh lebih banyak korban (baca: dollar2 dalam dompetnya). Ya, dan sepertinya dya melalui banyak kisah hidup di Jakarta. Mulai dari cewe sampai...sampai...kisah perjuangan hidup dan mati, disunat. Ya, dya dsunat liburan ini. WAKAKA.

Si Bule Malang
Arek Malang yang satu ini pulang setelah Si Kribo kira-kira 1 bulan yang lalu. Tak banyak kisah tentang si bule Malang ini selain beliau pulang dgn keadaan mabuk setelah post dance concert partynya. Maklum, bule lugu dari kota kecil d Jawa Timur ini tak pernah mengenal minuman keras. Wong nenk Malang ono ne ronde karo sekoteng. Piye to iki cah arep ngombe-ngombe karo ajep-ajep. Ya, kemudian dia melenggang dengan bahagianya dengan meninggalkan jejak keberadaan dya berupa jemuran yg tidak diangkat walau dya akan pulang selama 1 bulanan.

Si Koko
Kalo yang ini pulang bentar doank. Well,dya ud sering bgt pulang seh. Libur barang seminggu aj pulang. Akibatnya saya menjadi penguasa satoe kamar itu. HUAHAHA. Leluasa. Tapi juga sepi T_T.

Si Cici
Ini pulang minggu lalu. Senangnya pulang ampe nanti tgl 19. Di Indo bertemu Si Oom pula. Salam kangen manja buat Si Oom. Ditunggu lagi kehadirannya di samping peraduanku. Wakaka. Kalo dipikir-pikir cici yang satu ini kasian dch. Internshipnya paling capek tapi gajinya paling kecil. Wakaka.

Si Junior
Ya tinggal si mahluk malas ini yang masi tinggal menunggui rumah. Dan akhir-akhir ini dya tidur 12 jam sehari. WOW. Enak bo.

Sekian laporan live dari sini *drmn coba sini itu*

Junior, SIGN OUT! (shit masi satoe stgh jam lg ampe pulang kantor)

Tersenyum Lagi

2007-07-19T20:32:00.000+07:00

Pengantar

Barusan gw baca2 blog sohib SMA gw. Temen yg slalu bikin gw ngakak, temen gila2an, temen bego2an. Jadi dya bikin memoar gt ttg sohib2nya. N gw ngakak. Ya, gw ngakak bnr2 ngakak. Gw sesaat kembali k diri gw yg lama. Yg bodoh, cupu, n naive, tp BAHAGIA. Yup!

N kemudian gw jd pengen nulis sekuelnya. Tp dr sisi gw.

Chapter I: Masa-Masa Perkenalan

Iya jadi, temen gw ini si gendut yg lucu. Smua org bilang dya lucu. Kita pertama kali kenal di kelas 1-6. Wkt itu gw sekelas ma Marshal. Jd gw ga bother bwat cari temen. Trus ni org duduk d sebelah kanan gw. Wkt itu tampangnya serius bgt. Dikit2 kluarin buku n nyatet. Gw kira wah ini anak pasti juara 1 dari sekola d daerah. Habis rajinnya kayak anak yg ud jauh2 dateng dari Flores gt. Trus gw ma Marshal cuma bilang, wah ini kykny anak nepsongan nilai. Saingan. Ya, dulu memang gw kiasu so to say. Sekarang pun mungkin masih? Ha3. Ga tau jg. Impresi pertama gw ke dya: Pinter, nepsongan, pendiem, membosankan, cupu, lugu, naive, dan tentunya mudah diperdaya. Memang gw licik kali ya dari sananya, gw selalu senang segrup dengan orang2 seperti itu karena mudah dikontrol kalo ad kerja kelompok *picik sekali memang*. Tapi juga orang2 sperti itulah yg bisa membuat gw tenang dalam kerja sekelompok karena pasti beres kerjaannya =).

Ya karena nih anak terlihat pintar, gw jd berpikir. If you cannot defeat the enemy, better to keep the enemy close. Langsung gw ajak dya kerja segrup kalo ad apa2. Mading lah. Apa lah. Bareng ma Marshal, Hau2, n Boz. Eh kerjanya ok. Trus kita makin deket krn trnyata rumah kita searah dimana dya sering numpang. Turun di perempatan jalan deket rumah gw yang ampe sekarang pun gw ga tau nama jalan itu apa (Manja bgt ya gw ampe gitu aj ga tau). Iya, pertama2 kita cuma tuker crita, dari SMP mana, kenal sapa aj. Tak lupa terkadang tertawa kecil akan hal2 lucu di sekola. Iya, mesra sekali ya?

Kemudian gw jadi suka telpon dya. Pertama2 nanya tugas2. Lama2 jd ngobrol hal2 ga penting. Kyk pedekate aj kl dipikir2. Gw suka telp dya karena dya selalu bisa menimpali dengan cerdik dan jenaka. Trus dya salah satu dari segelintir orang yg dengan naivenya mao meladeni kebawelan gw *kdng2 bingung jg gw koq bisa ad org2 yg tahan ma gw*. Dari situ kisah kami berlanjut ke UCV.

Chapter II: UCV

Tenottenottenot!!! *bukan bunyi klakson mikrolet, itu bunyi telpon rumah*
"Nest, Lukas telp," suara nyokap gw berkata.

Ya, waktu itu gw ditelp Lukas malam2. Meminta gw dengan sangat untuk membantu UCV. Saat dya berkata masi butuh org.

Gw lgs dengan spontan, "Rei gw ajak ya?!"

Wkt itu Lukas dengan ga bgtnya membalas, "Emg dya bisa musik?", dengan nada meremehkan.

Gw langsung, "Bisa lah. Ud dech gw ajak aja ya."

Lukas pun dengan pasrah mengiyakan karena males berdebat dgn gw. Hu3, SUKSES!!
Sebenarnya alasan gw mengajak Rei adalah bukan karena gw tau dya bisa menyumbangkan musikalitas ke UCV. Tapi karena gw tau dya bisa gw ajak ngobrol, gila2an, n pulang bareng selama latihan UCV yang strenous itu. Ya itu dya alasan utama dan satu2nya. Dya bisa nemenin gw latihan UCV. Ha3! Bisa musik apa ga gw ga peduli.

Sekarang tinggal meyakinkan Rei. Ga mungkin donk gw bilang ikut UCV buat nemenin gw ngobrol kl latihan.

Jadilah gw merayu bujuk, "Rei, UCV butuh orang banget, loe GA NGAPA2IN KAN liburan ini?"

Rei membalas, "Duh, tapi gw takut ga bisa."

Gw dengan yakinnya, "UD LAH PASTI BISA, toh ada gw ma Marshal ini. *cuma asal ngomong untuk meyakinkan si lugu ini*"

Akhirnya takluklah dya. SUKSES! Secapek apapun UCV, gw ga takut laghi karena ada si lugu ini dan Marshal yang akan menemani gw. *Senyum puas malem itu*

Ya, sekedar pertanggung jawaban, Rei akhirnya sukses membuktikan musikalitasnya ke UCV *untunglah* tambah dya membawa keceriaan untuk seluruh UCV! ;)

Chapter III: Gila-gilaan!

Banyak banget yg gw lalui ma si gendut bertampang lugu yang karena bergaul dengan gw n Marshal jadi ikutan licik krn tak mau lagi terperdaya. Kita dugem bareng. Ya gw dugem pertama kali bersama dya dan tentunya sang promotor, Tante Uzmisusanti. Waktu itu dengan cupunya sibuk mencari baju yang sesuai, bingung men-gel rambut yang berakhir dengan rambut berminyak tanpa disertai tatanan rambut yg memukau. Ya, dan dengan malu2, kita berdua seperti orang dari desa. Untunglah ada dugem guru, Tante Uzmisusanti, yang telah melanglang buana di dunia malam. Gayanya yang bohay saat memasuki dance floor. Percaya dirinya saat memesan minuman yang terlihat seperti kerosene. Goyangannya di atas lantai dansa. Semuanya membuat gw n Rei yg cupu ini menjadi berani menjajal wahana perusakan moral remaja itu. Sungguh gila.

Selain itu kita juga suka nge-COS. Apa itu nge-COS? nge-COffeeShop. Ya, kita menghabiskan duit puluhan ribu rupiah demi kopi yang biasa2 saja d PI. Tiap kali menunggu latian UCV, gw, Rei, Marshal, n sekalilagi promotor kebanggaan kami, Tante Uzmisusanti, ngesot ke Plaza Indonesia. Di sana dengan lugunya kita merasa seperti eksmud ditemani segelas kopi penipu uang kaum metropolis. Dan dengan sengaja kita telat latian UCV karenanya. Hi3.

Bnyk lagi kegila2an yang kita lakukan. Dr telp2an ga karuan. Memparasitin orang sana sini. Hi3. Ampe ke Bali rame2 dimana Rei collapsed karena DB n Thypus. Waktu dya pingsan di Airport Ngurah Rai, dya narik tas gw ampe gw ikut terjerembab. Sadisnya adalah gw jadi terjerembab menimpa dya. Ha3. Trus di kala panik itu, sempat terlintas "YESH Extend stay d Bali". Sadis nian memang. Tapi tentu saja kita semua, termasuk gw, memprioritaskan kesehatan Rei. Walau banyak sempet ide2 jahat terlintas di antara kita seperti extend dan sebagainya yang malah memanfaatkan pingsannya Rei untuk kesenangan pribadi.

Untunglah Rei mendapat perawatan sempurna di Surabaya. Sekali lagi karena promotor kita yg handal dan terpercaya, Tante Uzmisusanti.

Chapter IV: Graduation

Akhirnya waktu pun ambil bagian. Kita lulus. Saatnya semua orang pergi menggapai cita2 masing. Sebelumnya kita sempet berjalan2 bareng k Bali. Nginep d TA. K Puncak bersama Bunda Noci.

Gw masi inget dya nangis pas retret UCV. *Pliz ya Rei, gw ga nangis!! Loe tuh ma Tata!!*

Wkt rebutan donat di Idola Remaja n malah tuh donat jatuh ke lantai! *Itu donat jatah gw harusnya monyet*

Ketika gw curhat ttg dya dan dya. Dan dya malah menimpali dgn gilanya, bukannya memberi masukan yg masuk akal.*Hi3*

Ya..skrg kita dipisahkan oleh laut dan biaya fiskal 1 juta. *yg trakhir ini yg sebenerny lebih memisahkan*

Tapi..heran, kykny tetep aj bisa gila2an. Ya, serasa ga pisah gt. Ya begitulah. Masi aj bertukar ide untuk morotin Noci *Parasitologi 101*. Masi aj ngobrol ga jelas. Hi3. Ya bgitulah salah satu kisah senyum gw d SMA.

Gw kangen SMAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

Disclaimer:
Penulis tidak bertanggung jawab atas adanya sakit hati dan semacamnya. =p

It's Just A Dream After All

2007-07-19T20:10:00.000+07:00

Deep in my slumber
I can hear us sing
No one else sings
It's our song

But when the morning comes
The light comes through the window
Piercing my sleepy eyes
Bring me back to reality

It's just a dream after all...

How much I long
To stay dreaming forever
Coz I have you there
But I know dream has to end
When the morning comes

It's just a dream after all...

But when the morning comes
The light comes through the window
Piercing my sleepy eyes
Bring me back to reality

At times I hate to sleep
Coz I know I will dream being with you
I am afraid I can't wake up
I am afraid I won't wake up

It's just a dream after all...

When the morning comes
Our song ends
This where I have to go
To the place I truly belong

It's just a dream after all...

I miss my stupid smile

2007-07-17T23:32:00.000+07:00

Kdng2 gw mikir..
Napa gw jd gini ya..
Bego dch..

Wkt gw liat foto gw n temen2 gw..
Di situ, gw ms bisa senyum dgn bodohnya..
Ga tau apa2..Life goes on like nobody's business..
But now, gw kehilangan senyuman gw..

As This Song Ends

2007-07-14T22:50:00.000+07:00

Sitting in front of my piano
I feel exhausted
As I put my fingers on
I am filled with feelings

You entered my heart
Like an enchanting beautiful verse
Take my breath away
with the chorus of your warmth

With every word of this song
I let go my suppressed feeling
With every note that I sing
I try to forget you

As the time goes on
My heart starts to sing
A song that I shouldn't sing
A happiness that I can't have

With every word of this song
I let out my suppressed feeling
With every note that I sing
I try to let you go

A discord of this song
Remind me of us
For you don't see me
For I can't have you

With every word of this song
I let out my suppressed feeling
With every note that I sing
I try to forget you

Shall this song ends
I will forget you
As this song ends
I'll move on

Happiness...

2007-06-12T22:52:00.000+07:00

Suicidal mood...

I am in a desperate need of internship. Akhirnya dari sekian banyak ada satu yg manggil for interview. But what happened? Jadi tadi di interview dya nanya "wat do u expect to get from this internship?" I answered "To get hands-on experience on advertising industry bla3..."

They replied "But this company is not an advertising agency..We are branding agency"

...
...
..

Then they explained the differences.

Okie, pdhl di SMU career web, ditulisny Services - Advertising. HAH? Dasar website bego. Bikin org sala aj. I really felt stupid. N somehow I can sensed that in their mind "Err..this kiddo is going to the wrong company".

Yeah..of all chances napa ini jadi gini.

Plus, masalah yg trus berlarut2 d rumah ini masi aj bugging me. Hurt. I really contemplate to move out soon. But, I wish it was that easy. Sigh. Life here is miserable. Especially since I am movin in.

...despo...

Down w/ fever

2007-04-27T22:23:00.001+07:00

Omg...I am so down w/ fever since Tuesday...5 days up to now...

From ordinary fever...which going up and down...

Muscle pain and feeling cold...

Then goes to nausea especially when eating....half of normal portion is the best I can go for...

And of course not forget to mention feeling week *weak* and unenergetic...A bit dizzy at times...

Hmm, fever up and down, nausea...No throat infection for sure...Is this typhoid? Had that before and almost showed the same symptomps but in lesser degree.

Excruciating...esp at nights...*I need comics to soothe myself*

Hope it is not sth severe...Let's say together: Amen.

Remark on previous post...

2007-04-22T21:04:00.000+07:00

Perhaps it is I who should try to understand...

Yeah...Have faith! Trust!

Bon Voyage

2007-03-31T22:49:00.000+07:00

Finally it's here
The day when you set sail
With her you'll share
Hand in hand across the hail

When you caught her
by the corner of your eyes
When you shivered
by the voice from her lips

It felt just like yesterday...

All the best is the only I can say
From behind the door as you are on the phone
May you be happy is the only I can wish
From loneliness behind this smile

Finally it's here
The day when you set sail
With her you'll share
Hand in hand across the hail

All the mischief we used to make
Might not be there anymore
All the fun we used to have
Might be there no longer

Yet, it felt just like yesterday

As a boy turns into a man
Embark on your new journey
As you lift your anchor
Waving hand behind this lonely smile

Permintaan buat bantal, selimut, n guling...

2007-03-16T13:00:00.000+07:00

Bantal...

Bantal, makasi ud bikin dya tidur nyenyak selama ini.

Aku..aku ga bisa kyk kamu..
menopang kepalanya yg lelah setiap hari..
memberikan dya kenyamanan di waktu dya capek..
karena aku ga punya kesempatan untuk itu.

Tolong jagain dya trus.
Bikin dya tidur nyenyak tiap malem,
apalagi kalo dya lagi capek.
Bwat dya slalu nyaman setiap kali dya pulang k rumah,
supaya dya ga sakit.

Aku cuma pengen dya bahagia.

Selimut...

Selimut, tiap hari kamu bikin dya ga kedinginan.
Makasi bwat itu tiap hari.

Aku berharap aku juga bisa membuat dya mrasa hangat
tiap kali bareng aku, seperti yg kamu lakukan.

Tolong terus buat dya mrasa hangat.
Walopun lagi sesedih apapun dya,
jangan sampe dya kedinginan.

Aku cuma pengen dya bahagia.

Guling...

Guling, tiap hari kamu dipeluk ma dya.

Aku iri sama kamu.
Tapi kamu jg bikin dya tidur enak di saat yg bersamaan.
Makasi.

Aku sedih bukan karena ga bisa dipeluk ma dya..
tapi..
karena aku ga punya kesempatan untuk bikin dya bahagia.

Guling, secapek apapun dya,
tolong bikin dya tidur nyenyak tiap hari.

Aku cuma pengen dya bahagia.

Tuhan,
Beri aku kesempatan...
untuk bikin dya bahagia...

cape dech...

2006-11-02T16:37:00.000+07:00

Lagi2 capek...

Ini mao nulis pake Indo aj, abiz di belakang gw bnyk anak2 laen. Tp non-Indo, jadi hrsny ga ngerti...Ha3...

Anw, iya gw lg d kelas, dengerin Prof yg ngomong matrik. Sumpe, mao mokat ngikutinnya. Bener2 bingung dya ngomong apa. Kadang2 gw nyesel ud ambil ini, tapi ud ga bisa mundur.

Gw super takut bwat 4 minggu k depan. UAS gila2an. Tugas kelompok smua dikumpul. Sekali lagi gw mrasa keder. Contoh, ini mata kuliah tentang matriks. Dulu d Indo, ini bab bener2 cupu. Diajarin simple2 doank. Nah sekarang, diajarin dgn dasyhatny PLUS mreka beranggapan kita semua ud ngerti melalui A level F Math. Bukan cuma Math, tapi F Math (Further Math). N gw hrs catch up itu plus tambahan2 yg lebih advance di kuliah skrg ini. Plus lagi, kendala bahasa. Sulit. Ilustrasinya neh, start kita berbeda. Gw kayak start di 0 km, yg laen di 100 km. Intiny, start gw ma mreka beda jauh. Some people bener2 ga peratiin, nyante2 karena mreka ud pernah bljr. GW?? Ampe mao nangis belajarnya juga masi terseok2. Kyk crawling on nothing. Gw bener2 ga tau hrs apa.

Kompetisi macem ini neh yg nyulitin. Anggep aj loe ambil kelas bahasa Melayu ma temen2 bule. Nah, jelas2 loe enak bgt kan. Mreka keder2 dch. Ya, semacam itu. Kadang, gw pengen belajar d Indo aj. Lelah. Idup gw abiz dimakan sekolah.

cape...

Mumbling...

2006-10-28T08:10:00.000+07:00

I dunno wat I am doin now. Bloggin instead of listenin to my dear Prof. This is Saturday 9 am in the morning, and I am here at this magnificent yet cold building.

N suddenly this urge to blog came. Yeah, months haven't opened my blog.

First, I would like to say how peaceful the class is. Because this is a make-up class, so only 1/3 came. The number is just perfect. It is more like a sharing session than a class. Love this.

Secondly, I would like to say I am tired. Studying here demands so much. During last presentation, I pronounced demand as di-men instead of de-man. Trus jd kyk diketawain gt. Sedih dch. Trus daily chores jg. Ah, capek pokokny.

Thirdly, gw senenk punya tempat tinggal baru, n ROOMMATE baru. Nanti gw kenalin dch. Tp anakny asik bgt n yg trutama ga neko2. Jd bisa meladeni gw yg bnyk maonya gini.

Ok...Mood nulis gw tiba2 ilang. Easy come easy go.

Salahkah aku?

2006-07-28T09:40:00.000+07:00

Ca e la..Lagu Tia AFI neh? Bukan.
*Anw, kykny judulny bukan Salahkah Aku dch. Itu cuma secuplik kata2 di reff ny*

Ya gt dch...

Curhat lg neh. Anjrit. Liburan emg bikin gw demen curhat. Butuh kesibukan neh.

Yup2..Gini lho...

Tatkala *canggih bahasany* ku menengok ke belakang. Gw ngeliat kalo gw ini rada..apa ya..ga ad jati diri yg pasti gt lho. I grew up as an awfully quiet boy. Dulu itu, ngomong ma guru aj takut. Apalagi ngomonk d depan kelas. Makin keder dch. Dikadalin, diomongin (di belakang ato terang2an), diejek2 ud ampe kenyang kali.

Serink jd ketua kelas. Tapi yg cuma jd pesuruh guru n tumbal kelas. Jadi OSIS ya cuma disuru ngetik2 dsb. Ga terbuka ksmpatan apapun yg gw rasa bikin gw berkembang. Ga ad yg mao bantuin. Gw coba jd diri ndiri ga jalan. Coba jd yg laen ya lumayan tp ad downside di tmpt laen. Rasany diri gw ini salah n diapain jg tetep sala. Capek dch. Napa ga ad yg mao ngertiin gw seh ya. Gw mao brusaha ngertiin mreka pun slalu gagal. Capek dch dch.

Trus jadilah gw menutup diri. Looks arrogant indeed. N kalo ngomong jadi sok2 PD, n kadang2 jadi pedes. Habis gmn donk. Kalo gw bersahabat santai gt malah kelihatan lemes n ga niat. N jadilah sok2 PD, yakin and..snap snap gt..n malah kelihatan pedes n sombonk. Then I choose untuk jd yg kedua coz it is painful to be ignored and looked down at. Tapi skrg pun gw tetep ngrasa capek.

Rasanya ya 2-2ny itu salah. Mao santai and friendly, diignore. Mao snap2 malah diignore krn ga disuka. Sigh. Susa ya. Maybe it is because my appearance? my tone? my high-pitched voice (mao diapain lg coba)?my style? Kykny ud brusaha tp tetep ga bs memuaskan. Capek lho. Coz I dunno how to fix it. Ud tlalu kompleks. My situation, my past experience. And rasany capek. Mao dibilang usaha trus, tetep gw mrasa capek. Rasany gw pengen pergi dr smua ini.

Ke tempat dimana gw ga peduli omongan orang. Mao jd pengamen yg nyanyi trus all day tanpa mikirin dpt duit brp yg pentink bs makan nasi n tahu. Mao jd pelukis jalanan yg gambar trus tanpa takut ad yg beli ato kaga. Mao jd tukang parkir yg santai n ngobrol doank kerjaanny.

Place when no one look at me. Gw ga hrs brusaha menjadi org yg gw mao org laen liat gw sebagai. Tapi jadi org yg gw mrasa santai n nyaman jd org itu. SICK. TIRED.

Coward? Perhaps. Childish? Perhaps.

2006-07-26T21:27:00.000+07:00

Ud ah, crita pake bhs Indo aj. Perlu ngluarin neh.

Gw ngrasa..hmm..apa ya capek aj. Gw ga tau apakah gw yg aneh ato emg lingkungan gw yg berperan. Gw kadang2 ngerasa orang2 itu dingin dan cuek. Dalam kata laen, masyarakat individualistis. Gini dch gw kasi contoh.

Kalo ad orang yg ga bisa, let's say presentasi. Gw bakal mao dengerin dya rehearsing over n over again. Comment trus2an. I dun mind as long as I like the person lho ya. Nah, tapi gw ga pernah tuh digituin. Gw jg sering ga bisa, tapi ga pernah ad yg nawarin mao bantuin ampe kyk gt ma org2 yg gw andelin, yg gw harap bisa nolonk gw.

Contoh lagi. Misalkan ada temen gw yg baru pindahan ke sg. Gw mao tuh nganter2 dya ke tempat2 yg dya butuhin. Be next to him/her pertama2 berhubung dya masi adjust to the life in sg. To be noted, as long as I like the person. Nah, gw ngrasa gw ga akan dibantu segituny ma org yg gw andelin.

Gw mao nolonk org2 yg gw respect and sayang. Tapi most of the times, they won't return the favor as much as I give.
Apa gw yg aneh? Gw yg trlalu all out bwat nolong org itu?
Ato gw yg trlalu naif memiliki ekspektasi yg begitu tinggi?
Ato gw salah milih org?

Ato...

Emg giving itu ga asking for return?
Emg seh kdng2 ad org yg baek k gw, tp gw ga gt appreciate krn org itu bukan org yg gw respect n love.
Maybe that is how it works. Giving and Returning ga slalu reflective 2 arah. Loe ngasi ke org, tp dibalas kebaikannya oleh org laen.

Yaa, tp tetep rasany sakit aj melihat ekspektasi loe atas org yg loe sayangi itu berlebihan. Loe berharap dya yg nolong, eh malah ga. Malah org laen yg nolong. Apa salah trus menolong org semacam itu? Kalo gt caranya bukan nolong kali ya. Masak nolong harus ad jaminan bahwa dya nolong balik?

Tapi, gw kan manusia. Mungkin childish n egois. Loe gw anggep org yg gw sayang. Gw bakal do all my best bwat nolong loe and so do u to me.

Dan mungkin, org itu ud do the best dgn cara org itu ndiri bukan dgn cara yg gw mao. N gw ngeliat itu sebagai dia ga do his/her best krn dya ga nolong balik dgn cara yg gw mao.

But..feeling gw slalu tells me one word, "dissapointment". Mungkin emg gw yg ga mao ngerti. Ato org yg gw sayangi itu ga worthed bwat gw. Gmn bisa bedainny? Susah. Loe bisa salah bisa jg bener.

I guess gw yg hrs buka mata gw. Life is full of turns and twists. Ga slamany sperti yg loe mao. Ada yg manis ad yg pahit. Tinggal gmn loe nya.
Mao nutup diri dari org laen selamany?
Ato mao trus menolong tanpa ekspektasi tinggi?
Ato percaya aj ma ur feeling dan manis ato pahit loe anggep sbagai bagian hidup?

Life ain't easy. Mungkin itu smua bakal ngebentuk kita.
Nonetheless, gw lg capek aj. Childish mungkin.
Mungkin harusny gw liat itu sebagai bagian idup yg ngebentuk gw n ga down trlalu lama.

TAPI..ad lho org yg begitu bahagia. Dya sempurna, bnyk temen. N smua org slalu sedia nolonk dya. Ga fair kan?
Sala gw? Apa attitude gw yg sala?
Ato emg nasib dya lebih baek?

Kalo ud gini, gw ga bs jawab. Bingung apa yg sala dari gw. Iri. Ato mungkin gw aj yg serakah n ga bs liat kalo dya punya masalahny ndiri. Ato mgkn dya jg merasa kyk gw despite apa yg gw liat.

Life is an enigma ato gw aj yg mikir terlalu rumit?
Mungkin manusia hanya bisa melihat semuany scara positip.
Ato manusia trus sampe mati ga menyukainy n brusaha mrubahny.
Choice is urs. Bener salah? Kita ga bs ngomong.

PS: Sayank di sini bukan pacar loe. Tp sayank in general.

'I'm still too much afraid breaking my heart'

25,550 days of your LIFE...

2006-07-20T19:48:00.000+07:00

Our days on earth are so swiftly passing by.

"I'm still 19..Come on, chill..."

"Well..I can do it tomorrow instead of today..."

"Relax, you have all the time in the world..."

Those quotes are everywhere. Most of us think that our life is still a long way ahead. Perhaps, we often have our silver citizens telling us to regard our time, stop procrastinating as time won't go back. And...we answer silently...

"Ah..I'm not 60 years old..Later...Now, I better enjoy and enjoy.."

If we see our life in years, all seems will be very long. Average lifespan of people now is 70 years old. Wheww, 70 years, man!. 1 year is..well..quite long..I am 19 now, and more or less I will have another 51 years to go. 51 years! Sounds like forever right? But...let's play with conversion...

70 years is 25,550 days. Suddenly, everything sounds so fast. 1 day can be spent by hanging out, sleepin, or watchin tv. 1 day is surely fast. And...25,550 is not a very big number...

I am 19 now. I have spent almost 7,000 days. 7,000 is around 1/4 of 25,550. Around 18,000 days left. How?

If you feel that suddenly you are 19, then guess how fast will it be until you are 60?70?

1 year is longggggg. 70 years, well seems like all the time in the world is yours.
70 years - seems forever

1 day is short. 25,550 is not a big number.
25,550 days - wheww, so short

Funny, isn't what conversion can do?

So, instead of thinkin 50 years ahead..change it to 18,000 days out of 25,550 days left ahead.

Cheers for our time! Cherish our life!

Our only 25,550 days are passing by so fast...

Gross 'n gruesome: The Hills Have Eyes

2006-06-25T18:28:00.000+07:00

Imagine...You were deserted in a middle of nowhere, a freaky barren desert. No cellphone, nothing. Just you and your family.

Now add the spices. Put together in the picture a town of deformed people. DEFORMED with capital and underscore. Mutated by radioactive waste since in the womb. For reference, take a look at the victims of Minamata Tragedy, but in this movie is far more worse. And they are fierce. Lurking from the dark of the night.

Now the gruesome part. One of your family was burnt alive on a stake. One was shot at the abdomen and slowly died. Even the corpses were taken away to be eaten. Yeah eaten.

Fighting, yes you can expect that. From a knife to an axe. From a gun to a shot gun. Bloodshed? No more question. There are even chopped fingers during the fight. Blood, limbs, all uncensored.
Gross.

More to come. Imagine you where locked alive in a fridge box with fresh body parts complete with blood.

And, rape. Yeah, hell yeah. A fine looking girl was raped in a caravan. Fierce and brutal. And, make it double since it was done by 2 deformed (once again capital and underscored) persons. AAA...It just kills your appetite.

No more comments. It just simple gross and gruesome without smart storyline. So, if u wanna see blood, limbs, and monsters...This is the right movie.

But, remember to empty your stomach first unless u want to puke on your tv screen.

WTF!!! F4 sampah...Viva KEN HIRAI...

2006-05-29T18:05:00.000+07:00

OK...here's the thing. Lately, I got pissed off. One of my idols, KEN HIRAI-san once sang a song titled Gaining Through Losing. So inspirational...Ok, a bit late indeed that I just heard it recently. It was quite a long time ago...

And I just found out that F4 imitated that song. PLAGIARISM!!!. And that plagiarism made them one of the top notches of asian music industry. Meteor Rain "Liu Xing Yu" (Do I spell it correctly?). Their number-one-song-ever is eventually an act of plagiarism. NO PRIDE indeed. Rise to the top by stealing an intellectual property. *Disgust*

Ok people...It is called authentic!! I wish I could listen them to you for comparison. A piece of music was turned into a junk...Chinese...Plagiate everything. Well, downside of us indeed. But, I must admit a keen sense of competition we have here.

*PURELY DISGUST* The plagiator.

Ok peeps, just want u to know that the-number-one-hit "Meteor Rain" by F4 was actually an act of plagiarism of "Gaining Through Losing" by Ken Hirai.

So, F*** up F4...

VIVA KEN HIRAI!!!

Bear that in mind!

19 Years

2006-05-24T20:20:00.000+07:00

19 tahun kulalui...
...
...

tapi koq rasany byasa aj ya...Hi3...Tau ah, lg pusink neh ma masa depan gw.

Pokokny..
Makasi bwat Tuhan...
Makasi bwat Papa, Mama, Kevin, n family...
Makasi bwat temen2 smua dr kecil ampe skrg...N bwat smua-mua-mua-nya...

Love u all...N moga2 kita ga salink lupa akan smuany n maintain all of these forever...GBU...

Cheers,
Ernest

2nd Term

2006-05-06T20:49:00.000+07:00

Ya...

My GPA this term should be around 3.56.

Still grumble2 actually...But, why I never learn to be grateful, eh?
Improvement indeed by 0.1. But still, mediocre grade if you compare it with my colleagues'.

Yup. There are chances. I dunno how big, but I'll continue living. Never give up and persevere...

Optimisme...Take it simple...

2006-04-29T22:19:00.000+07:00

Lately,...life has been so difficult...
How hard I tried, there were always things which obstructed my way.
Unseen things...Dunno how to deal with them...

You are almost there, but not quite there.
Always like that.
Something is always missing.

Either...
I cannot foresee it...or
I dun have resources to fix it...Always...

I guess the good old days are no more...

Accept who you are now.
Work your way up.
And never give up.

What's wrong with falling down?
It is alright as long as you can always stand up again...

If you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly
and smiles at me...I'm alive.

Do your best for today...
As time will never go back.

A Bad Day

2006-04-20T22:34:00.000+07:00

Huah...it has been a while...Alright, now I want to blog my quite a sad day today...

There is this corp of students called SMU Ambassador. Prestigious indeed. Consists of SPG (Smart Popular Good-looking) people. Wow, right? Like a group of good looking people yet smart and that is why they are so popular. Simply wow. When I say SPG, I really mean it. Those people are a bunch of high flyers. Some models. Some national athletes. Some scholars. Most of them are really high flyers. Well, I believe it is the most prestigious and hardest-to-get-in club in SMU.

There are 2 rounds of recruitment basically. First one is the application form where you put a lot of things bout urself. Quite a work to fill the form. I passed this one. Ha3. So happy at that time. From around 120 down to around 60. Not bad, eh? Ha3.

Second round is the interview. Feww, hard. During the interview, we had to underwent 3 things. First is the interview itself. What a question. Really. What is your take on capital punishment in Singapore. What will you answer if external people ask bout the high fee and fee hike of SMU tuition fee. Which will you choose, loyalty or competency. What can you give to SMU and SMU Ambassador. And somewhat I felt that I had to handshake them at the end of the interview which I didn't do.

Second, we had SMU tour simulation. We were suppose to give a tour of SMU to Thai delegations. Given 5 minutes to think and 10 minutes for the show. Wah. I realize I used the phrase 'I believe that...' too much incoherently. Damn awkward. At that point, I lost my focus entirely and tour-fiasco came to play. I didn't know what said. Guess have to be more prepared and humble. Sigh. Then thing got worse when they started asking why the fee of SMU is so high and what does SMU provide for Thai students with financial problems. Sigh. I bet they also cannot answer it perfectly.

Third, the quiz. WOW. Lot of things bout Singapore. Who is Dr. Vivian Balakrishnan? What is the other position of the current PM, Lee Hsien Long? Hah? I've been here only for 8 months. Sigh. The essay on suggestion on how to communicate SMU to international community is also quite tough.

Yeah...I got rejected. Honestly, I hoped quite high for the appointment. But then, flabbergasted. Sigh. I feel that they think I dunno much bout Singapore n SMU yet, which is somewhat true. And maybe I dun have the charm, which I prefer to call it the BLINK effect. Ha3. Lot of stuff to work out then...

And also, just now I played a board game with BGS mates. The game is called I'm The Boss. FUN! DAMN FUN! I won during the first rounds, but then lost at the end. I realize that I made my move too fast. The person who won, he could read the trick immidiately. WOW. He stayed calm and gained power during the first rounds since the stake was low. When we entered last rounds, the stake grew high and that is when he made his move. Smart indeed. I learn that WAITING is also a strategy, KNOW when to make your move and FOCUS on reading the trick when you first encounter something new...

That's about it. Yeah. That's about it. Oh, one more thing, I hope I can still be an RA since my GPA is not adequate. Sigh one more time...

gila...

2006-04-06T10:53:00.000+07:00

gw meracau trus akhir2 ini...
ampe eneg ndiri...

trapped in this silly feeling

CEO Advice: (Recommended stuff!!!)

2006-03-20T18:26:00.000+07:00

Jocelyn Chng. She is the CEO of a sauce company. What makes her interesting is she took over the business at the age of 21-22, during her second year in NUS. She had to do it because her father died and she had to feed her mother and 5 siblings. Act out of love.

Remarkable story. During her age, people are usually still unstable. Love to party. Think bout dress. ETC.

She chose to continue her business even all people around her discouraged her to do so. When all her friends wore nice nice dress, she wore a working clothes in a small factory. When all her friends went for party, she went to deliver goods to customers.

Her advice:

PASSION and PERSEVERANCE
Decide what you want..
then stay focus
Start to work hard early. Do not work hard just when you decide what you want.
Dare to ask. Coz you'll never know what will you get. To people, staff, customers.
Education. No matter what it is important to develop your mind and broaden your view..
so you have vision upfront and know what to implement to reach it (technology, etc.)

Perseverance...Hard part indeed...

CEO Advice

2006-03-01T01:35:00.000+07:00

Hmm...ad CEO berkunjung.

Ini pesanny yg berkenan:

1. Ethics is who you are. Your foundation. Without it, u'll lose your direction and dunno wat to do to handle situations.
2. Money is energy.
3. Circle outside, square inside.
4. Once u trespass ur ethic, u'll never be able to see ur face in d mirror.
5. Lose money is not always a loss, it may be a triumph!

Advice...

2006-02-27T21:49:00.000+07:00

Today I got such wonderful advices.

When you are young, seek for experiences because people would likely to teach you (3 first years). If you got 2 job offers, should pick the one which will teach you the most regardless the salary.

At the end, what count is yourself. Not your GPA. You as a whole human.

Add it up:
Personality is very important. Sometime, u cannot advance your carreer because you cannot adapt the company's culture. So, be adaptable and learn the company's culture well before you work there.

Hmm...be an analyst. Try to read numbers.

Experience!!!

BED BUGS!!! Bite? Oh, please say no...

2006-02-27T02:32:00.000+07:00

Okie...Hmm...Straight to the point...

I saw tiny tiny creatures jumping jumping in my bed. Definitely bugs. Is that bed bug??
They don't bite right? Please tell me so...

Hmm...I think I already have my room clean enough. But then why?how?

One more thing...HOW TO GET RID OF THEM???

PICTORIAL SECRET [1st]

2006-02-18T23:43:00.000+07:00

Cipularang's High

U know Tol Cipularang?Cipularang Highway?...What a view along the road I had there. Work your eyes and artistic feeling, and voila, you'll have an amazing pic.

Happy Lantern

Happy bday Febri!!! This is in Febri's bday party. We just have this wonderful idea. Then, my sense of photography just add a bit touch. Cool, right?

Euuhhh...Arrogant!

Got this when I went to Singapore Zoo. Luckily I was there when this creature boast its beauty. Arrogant yet...mesmerizing.

Singapore GST

They have this everyday for Chinese New Year Celebration. Hmm, wonderful how they turned such a horrible tax into this magnificent show.Hmm...

Corner

People, cool right? I just saw this at one of the mall here. Then, I decided to put it in the corner of the frame. Hmm, artistic, right?

ef'06
18/02/06
Thx to my Nokia 6600
Comment ya smuany!!!
-Picture paints a thousand words-

Cinta...

2006-02-14T00:07:00.000+07:00

ernest: Happy Bday WOOFFF!...Looking for a condo...(23+1)..HAPPY VALS Peeps... says:

Byarlah dya menjadi matahari
dan aku menjadi bulan
Menguasai dunia
Menerangi manusia
exist dalam keabadian
...namun tak kan pernah bersatu...

Matahari bersinar terik
dan bulan hanya akan merindu
karna cahyanya takka n pernah sampai untuk menghangatkan matahari
dan matahari... takkan pernah tahu kalau sang bulan ada...
dan selalu ada di tengah senyapnya angkasa

ReinaldOchasing resolution says:

Byarlah dya menjadi matahari
dan aku menjadi bulan
Menguasai dunia
Menerangi manusia
exist dalam keabadian
...namun tak kan pernah bersatu...

Matahari bersinar terik
dan bulan hanya akan merindu
karna cahyanya takka n pernah sampai untuk menghangatkan matahari
dan matahari... takkan pernah tahu kalau sang bulan ada...
dan selalu ada di tengah senyapnya angkasa

[ZaraThurza]: Absolvo Amitto, Amplus Brevis, Sempler Mea says:

Byarlah dya menjadi matahari
dan aku menjadi bulan
Menguasai dunia
Menerangi manusia
exist dalam keabadian
...namun tak kan pernah bersatu...

Matahari bersinar terik
dan bulan hanya akan merindu
karna cahyanya takka n pernah sampai untuk menghangatkan matahari
dan matahari... takkan pernah tahu kalau sang bulan ada...
dan selalu ada di tengah senyapnya angkasa

MSN, Tuesday 1:12 AM (Singapore Time)

Serenity Prayer

2006-01-28T00:18:00.000+07:00

GOD,
grant me the

Serenity
to accept the things
I cannot change

Courage
to change the things
I can

and the

Wisdom
to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,not as I would have it.
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.

Amen

Entitled to...

2006-01-11T23:49:00.000+07:00

On that day, I was assured.
Nothing changed.
It was the same as those old bad yet good days.

Yup.
Gotta end this inane cycle.
Tired yet can't let go.

U r something more...
U r far from nothing...
in my life.

I want, need...
Yet...
It is not as comfy as I want to be when I am near...

I just don't know what...
whether this is because simply our story so far...
too long to be ended...

or because the strongest power of all...
which I am not prepared yet...
which I am afraid of learning it...

Now...

Gotta end this...
Let the flow take place...
I believe each of us will get our own greatest gift...

It is all in the hand and mind of Lord...
whether the best is to go in different ways...
or being together side by side...

Cannot think...
cannot plan...
let it flow...

One day,
there must be the answer for this...
But one thing for sure...U was something...

Chin up !!! Look all way ahead !! Strive !

2005-12-06T00:23:00.000+07:00

Hmm..
I was just thinking bout Singapore Scholarship. Last year, I knew nothin bout it. I only knew Goh Keng Swee one. Singapore Scholarship requires no bond !!! Great indeed !!! Ha3. Recently, I met people who got that Singapore Scholarship. Hmm, (arrogant thinking) I am better than most of them. Well, just my thought anw. If only I had known bout that scholarship, I would have got it in my hand and free of bond.

But, I believe everything happens for a purpose. Maybe, I need to learn a lot through this.

Anw, there is no need to cry over spoilt milk.
Be happy for your situation. Live it to the fullest with hope and dreams !!!

Chin up !!! Look all way ahead !! Strive !

Exam week is finished.

2005-12-03T17:25:00.000+07:00

Bliss.

Goin home this Sunday.
Bliss.

Is it me?? or is it simply hard??????

2005-11-30T23:03:00.000+07:00

(T_T)

Just made prediction for my overall grade (GPA). I predicted it would be 3-3.3...
Sad...

It means only B- to B.
7.0 - 7.6
Sad...

While I believe a lot people would score at least 3.4
B+
Some score 3.8 and above (quite many actually)
A- to A+

Hard. Damn hard. The competition is too harsh. Fierce.
Argh!! Why a lot of diligent and smart people in this world.
Depressed somehow. Dunno why. Dunno how.

(T_T)

Evbody is growing...

2005-11-26T08:46:00.000+07:00

Time flies so fast...
One by one, people are gone...
Day by day, new born comes...
Each of us growing with time...

18 years ago,
None of us can speak. Know nothing of word and world.

12 years ago,
We meet each other. With friends. New school.

6 years ago,
New stage has come. Teenage. We gain our freedom, yet still childish.

3 years ago,
More mature. Provision of future. Prepare to face real world out there.

Now,
Everyone has grown up a lot.
Try to look back for a while and be happy for who you are so far.

Humbleness...

2005-11-23T10:17:00.000+07:00

After I was drowned in my grieve..(So kiasu..Ckckck..), I finally can accept it. This prayer came to my mind then. Hope it can lead me to achieve my spirit back, to go for my better future, and to be closer with Father. ;)

"Tuhan, berikanlah aku
kedamaian tuk dapat menerima apa yang tidak dapat kuubah
Keberanian tuk mengubah apa yang dapat kuubah, dan
Kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui perbedaannya.
Amin"

"Father, please bless me with
peace to accept what I cannot change
courage to change what I can change,
and wisdom to know the difference.
Amen."

Extremely gloooooooommmmyyyyyy !

2005-11-22T16:47:00.000+07:00

I woke at 2 pm. Wow. Instead felt fresh, I felt tired.

Rain made me gloomy.

I was sad.

(Sounds like a desperate boy...Ckckck...Dunno why I felt thay way...)

bewildered...

Deteriorated...Again??!!...Wat life is this...

2005-11-19T22:07:00.000+07:00

Man, I felt so down...low...lowest...I dunno how to say it...My lowest state of mental condition...

Symptoms:

TIRED
Do not want to do anything...Anything!
tired
Lazy
tIr3d
Dunno what to do anyway...(although still got projects in hand)
feel that too many things need to do...
Tired
etc...(desperado)

Big city syndrome?? Perhaps..

I really felt empty. Dunno why. Wanted to scream, but no point. Wanted to cry, could not. Wanted to watch Harry Potter, had to wait till next week. Just pure empty, void. So desperate. Spontaneously, I browsed Zen picture and got this one. (See how desperate I was so I did that!! I surprised myself.)

OMG!!! Hope I was there. Sitting. Enjoying the cold breeze. Listening to the silence. Devouring the natural sight. Absorbing the peace of mind. If only...just for 10 minutes...

Crack...Heart broken...

2005-11-16T16:18:00.000+07:00

(T_T)

Crackin up..Just got double C+...Man, double !!! And each is worth 25%...So total 50% of my Communication grade is C+ which ranged between 66-69 and GPA 2.3...

What painful is I got B+ for my exercise which was not counted in the final result...DAMN!!!
Anyway, that B+ I believe it was just luck...

Communication...So abstract...How do you know whether it was right or wrong if you judged it by heart !!! Not smooth enough, too direct and sounds rude...OMG !!! Everyone has different interpretation !!! This is to read the Prof's interpretation, not to learn how to write a good letter...

And, C+ means fail for this course..And have to attend additional classes for next term...
Cracked...
Heartbroken...
Sad simply sad...

(T_T)

Am I?? (IMPORTANT)

2005-11-15T18:51:00.000+07:00

I felt so dishearted by my LTB quiz result. 7.6. Well, it is the highest B. N a lot of friends got below my mark. And a lot of got above my mark. But, still so disheartened..

Am I being too sulky bout this?? Kiasu??

I dunno..I realize that this is LTB..Abstract theory..N Prof. covered that very fast..A lot of theories really..N the quiz question is not a direct one, not like jargon = definition..He gave real life examples and then asked us to categorize which theory was that..My interpretation might be different with the Prof.!!! And this was also affected by my English!! And, it was abstract anyway...Leadership theory, oh man, it depends on your intrepretation!!!..And I realize that I studied a the last minute for this one...

Seeing that, I should feel grateful instead of demoralized like this...Yeah, I have prepared for this anyway..Since the first class of this Leadership and Team Building class, I knew that it would be hard to get high score based on my situation...

Yeah..have to feel grateful..stop grievin bout the past...Do not repeat the same mistakes..Prepare long before the test !!! especially when u feel not good at it !!!

Now, prepare for the finals in the next 2 weeks !!!

Lonely Boys...New boyband in d town?? Ha3..No!!!

2005-11-14T00:34:00.000+07:00

3 Blind Mice??

3 Musketeers??

No no no...

They are 3 Lonely Boys aka 3 Desperate Hostel Boys aka 3 HBW Boys...

Each of them got their own matters. Both all of them have similarity. Need girl !!! Wat a pathetic category.

Olly - He just sms his high school friend. Apparently, she is his long lost target at the high school. Old story comin back?? Perhaps.

Kenny - Reviewing his past mistakes. Grieving for that. Planning to make it up by trying to talk with that girl.

Ernest - Ha3. Old story comin back?? Kind of. Past mistakes?? Kind of also.

Will this situation change?? Will they find theirs?? Perhaps...

Team...Friends...My LTB...(Reported Live)

2005-11-09T21:13:00.000+07:00

Welcome..Welcome to the mystical darkness of the night..I am Jacko bin Lantern..Right now, there are 5 young people, unaware of my presence, doing preparation for LTB Presentation. What a resourceful and cheerful team indeed..I sense a strong bond and friendship among them..I may use them for Halloween next year...Ha3...

This is Yulun. He is good at playing guitar. Man, just need more confidence. Nice person. DOTA addict. Ha3..Maybe I can use him as a guitarist in my next Halloween feast...

Next, this is Anh..Vietnamese..Good at painting and playing piano...Such an artistic person..Should use her help on painting my noisy fellow, Scarecrow..Hi3...

Aha..This one..Brenda..Ha3..Mature young lady..No wonder she can manage her long-distance relationship..Count Dracula, my director, might like this girl..I shall introduce her to him later..Ha3..

Fyuuhhh..This one..LingHui..I am scared of her..She is more scary somehow than my director..Quick, escape before she notice me..Let her be another mystery...Hi3...

N-E-X-T..Randy..This childish naughty boy is some kind a big bro or da ge in this team..I wonder why..Slacker and fun-loving..Mahjong maestro..So, are feeling Randy tonight??..Well, I'm not...

AHA...Who is this..She is not one of them..Ahh, I know..She is their TA..Celine..Nice smile..But, maybe that smile have something behind..Who knows..But I sense no evil in her somehow..Unlike the boyish Randy..Ha3..Let it be another mystery for next year..

Ok..Jacky here..Reporting live from earth..Back to the studio..(Need to go back soon before they notice me (~~;))

Ah..almost forgot..This is my cameraman..A very great and talented young man..Jacky and Ernest..Out..Back to the studio...

Man...Just wanna say, I'm damn tired...

2005-11-02T09:23:00.000+07:00

T These weeks are damn tough..
I Hope I didn't falter soon..Still got things to do...
R OMG !!!
E Must SURVIVE !!!!!
D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Driven by books...

2005-10-27T19:39:00.000+07:00

In May, Newsweek reported an event of desecration of Koran (Qur-an). In Guantanamo (Did I spell it right??), in order to invoke one of the prisoners' anger, the authority flush a Koran in a toilet.

Protests followed that news. In many countries, Moslems was driven to furiousness and caused some riots. What happened next is, Newsweek was flooded with troubles. Special talk in TV hosted a debate between Newsweek and US Department of Defence. Ha3, maybe politic power did work. Newsweek informant (was..) denied that he told that desecration incident to Newsweek.

After that, a big sorry from Newsweek was delivered by its editor. (Sorry for Newsweek also.)

It is funny how men can be driven irrationally by a book. The same thing will happen if our Bible is desecrated. Koran and Bible hold wisdom for better world, but it also drive people to worsen our world, for example: Terrorist Jihad and Holy War. Why??
Well, we have to admit that this world is rational yet irrational. Rational irrationality?? Irrational rationality?? U decide...

Korean Video Clip "Because I'm a Girl" by Kiss

2005-10-21T14:14:00.000+07:00

Gw dpt dr Singaporean temen gw. Korean video clip "Because I'm a Girl" by Kiss. Damn mellowish romance...Critanya mirip Ungu Violet...Tapi dgn penggarapan dan lagu yg sesuai, semuanya menjadi begitu indah..."Indahnya cinta...Ha3!!!".

Ha3...Parah2...Tp emg super keren, ga bisa diungkapkan dch...Gw ad neh 18 MB...Yg internetnya kuat, bole minta k gw...=)...Ga nyesel dch...N tambah di situ, ce nya cakep abiez...Bikin co2 menghela napas...Apalagi pas rambutnya diiket ke belakang...Bloody breathtaking...Hi3...

Liriknya canggih !!! Tapi, setelah baca bener2...Gw menkategorikan lagu ini ke SIALAN...
Lyric as follow:

Because I'm a Girl
by Kiss

I just cant understand the hearts of men
They tell you they want you
And then, they leave you
This is the first time,
You're special
I believed those words and I was so happy...

You should have told me you didn't like me anymore
But, I couldn't see that
And you just rushed me
Although I will curse you, I'll still miss you
Since i am a girl, to whom love is everything...

I heard that if you give up things too easily to a man,
he will get bored with you
I don't think this is wrong
A girl says that she will never be fooled again
But, she will fall in love
again...

You should have told me you didn't like me any more
But, I couldn't see that
And you just rushed me
Although i will curse you, I'll still miss you
Since i am a girl, to whom love is everything...

[narration]
Hey babe the pain it's not enough to describe how I feel
We were so happy together
But, I know now I've been blind
You told me that you'd never let me down
Whenever I needed you, you'd always be here
I can forgive but I can't forget even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you...

Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
I didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
Although I will curse you, I'll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
Although I will curse you, I'll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything...

(Ini English version..Aslinya Korean...)
(I'm totally speechless...)

Capek...Bnr2 capek...

2005-10-19T14:18:00.000+07:00

Kehidupan d SMU sangat gila...Jauh berbeda drpd Taman Bermain Kanisius yg kucintai sepanjang masa...

Di sini, walopun cuma 5 courses, capeknya ga ketulungan...Projects, Written assignments, Test, Presentations, Quizzes...Smuany killing me slowly...Minggu lalu kan my mid-term break, libur seminggu...N wat?? Gw k skul tiap hari bwat project meetings and bahkan ada test d hari Kamis...Kasi libur koq ga niat...

This 2nd half of this term is going wilder...Deadly deadlines come in line...Ready to align me to the half dead state...Nilai yg gw dpt...So far, ya lumayan...Tapi gw pengen bisa lebih dr itu...Lawan gw Sporean yg pada berumur 19-21...Rata2 umurnya pada 21 smua...Mreka ud lebih mature n ud byasa ma sistem writing d sini...Their English jg lebih advance...OMG...Gw harus berpacu bnr2 keras supaya bisa bersaing...Skrg aj ud capek...Mo gmn donk??

Bnr2 super capek...

Lelah...

Tired...

Exhausted...

Huff...Sigh...(Pokoknya menghela napas)

N tambah lagi skrg smuanya ndiri...Cari makan, nyuci, dkk !!! N kesehatan yg rentan ini pun butuh perhatian lebih di kala kesibukan...N appearance gw?? Makin screwed up plus stress pula...Argh !!!

Too many things...
1. Jaga n improve your health n appearance!!!
2. Chase other achievements and skills that will bring u more further!!!
3. Chase grades also!!!
etc.

Gila...Gila...Gila...Mana slot bwat fun and sanity??

OK...Dgn time management yg super keren n a ton of luck...Moga2 bisa...
Butuh motivator n penyemangat neh...
Help...

Skrg...Usahain bangun pagi n kurangi tidur dl !!!

Must not give in...Need someone...

A Cinderella Story...Still, a fairy tale...

2005-10-14T01:01:00.000+07:00

Review of A Cinderella Story
Cast: Hillary Duff, Chad M.M., and so forth...

Ha3...Malem2 gini 0200 hours, gw baru saja selese nonton...A Cinderella Story...I think it is a new movie, not sure though...

Here's the thing...Ini cerita Cinderella, cuman dibikin zaman skrg...N of course Hillary Duff got the main role...Dya seorang ce yg tinggal barenk her step mother and step sisters...Byasa lah, disuru kerja, diboongin, etc. (U know Cinderella story lah)...Trus dya ke psta Hallowen, janjian ma co yg ketemu di chattin (co itu turned out to be cogan di skulnya lah, dya juga berjuang masuk Princeton...ketebak lah)...Trus jam 12, dya harus balik kerja, takut ketahuan her step mother...Di sini Hillary Duff berperan jd ce pekerja keras, kerja d kafe bokapnya yg skrg dikuasai nyokie tirinya, n bulan2an skul krn dia kerja sebagai diner girl (pelayan kafe)...Dya jg pinter where in the end, she was admitted to Princeton Univ...Then...Cinderella lah...N akhirnya the girl support the guy to go against his father and chase his own dream, not his father's...And co itu, yg pertama ragu2 krn status ce itu sbg the diner girl, jd brani ngejar ce itu...Ya STD lah...But still, lightly sweet and romantic...Hmm, pelem gt enak coz mudah dicerna and entertaining...Drpd pelem2 sastra yg at the end left the audience in question...

Tapi ada 2 simple lines yg keren dr situ...

1. Do not let fear strike and prevent you from keep playing !!!

2. I don't care what others' thought bout me...I believe in myself...And I know that everything is gonna be alright...

Ha3...I love those lines...Kinda encouragin gt dch...Emg seh, kisah d situ berbau fairy tale bgt, too good to be true...Walopun mencoba diadaptasikan ke kehidupan remaja zaman skrg, ttp aj too fairy tale-ish lah...

But those 2 lines are not bad...He3...Ok, that's all for now...

The balance...Hmm, gut advice...

2005-10-13T18:36:00.000+07:00

Like bout last week...The owner of Ya Kun Kaya Toast (Know that brand?? No?? Poor u) came to give a small talk in my school...I coincidentally joined that talk...Ha3...

He mentioned bout balance...
To maintain the health of physic and mind...
To maintain work and family...

and the most important is...

To maintain the balance between receiving and giving...
Receiving success, fame, fortune...
Giving charity, educational talk...

I dunno, the last one encouraged me to do good deeds to people...Well, just think bout it...

My life quality here is...SHIT...(Read pliz, then comment sth useful...)

2005-10-13T00:58:00.000+07:00

OMG...This was 0200 hours in the bloody dark morning...(Wat d hell am I doing??!!!)

I just realized that I was damn hungry...(Dunno why, I have my dinner at 2000 hours already)...Then I snatched the yummy looking chocolate that I bought at SevnElvn...Then, some how there was a disgusting slimy oil all over the plastic...Damn!!! Maybe because I put in 29 celcius degree room...

I threw that away...Placed my eye on...INDOMIE...Truly a savior for college student who studied abroad...BUT...BUT...BUTT!!!...But then I found that the Indomie melempem (Anyone knows the English for melempem??)...Threw that away...

My last resort...MIE NISSIN...Damn hell!!!...Same thing happened...

Wow...I can't believe how hard it is just to find snacks...Ok, so stupid...

I think I should have milk and more snacks here !!!

Actually, I still had Oreo Cereal...But, I was sick of it...Could I have other snacks please??

Argh...Damn lousy!!!

How bout meals??...Almost the same...I keep on eating the same meals from the same stalls...Kopitiam and Evans'...Enough nutrition?? Don't think so...Enough carcinogen?? Well, hope not...I need to learn how to COOK !!!...And need a safe fridge to keep all the things !!!

Any suggestion?? Any fast recipe?? Any unused small fridge (he3...)??

Orang itu kalo ud tua, sopan dikit napa...Anw...Hi3...

2005-10-02T19:57:00.000+07:00

Td d greja...Pas slese greja...

Ada nenek2...Bener tua dch...Turun tangganya susah n super pelan...Trus ad wanita muda gt...Dgn baeknya, dya berkata, "Do you need a help??", sembari mengulurkan tangannya. Eh, si nenek malah menyemprot fgn nyolot sembrono dan sombongnya, "DON'T TOUCH ME"...Kontan sang wanita lgs terhenyak mundur dan meninggalkan nenek itu. Sopan dikit napa...Jawab aj, "Oh, thank you, but I'm fine.." ato semacamnya...Ntar kalo jatuh jg ga ad yg nolongin dch...

Anw, gw hari ini k*n*e* lg neh...Kacau...Efek samping naek bis...Hi3...Tau ah...

Seharusnya...Gw ud bisa ngelupain and move forward...Masa gw stuck seh??

2005-09-30T20:25:00.000+07:00

Akhir2 ini my life is very tired...Deadlines and exams are all lining up...And the implication for that is H*W...Ha3...Parah...Anak CC bgt...

And...Ya gt dch...N suddenly flashing all over...

Masa seh...Harusnya ud ga kan??...Trus lucuny lg, kyk ad telepati...Ha3...Senenk n takut...(Ms. B, shut up ya loe...)

Masa seh...Masa...Masa stuck...Kyk tutup botol yg ga bisa di-unscrew...Kyk pohon cemara yg ga bisa dicabut dr tanah...Kyk matahari yg ga bisa dicomot dari langit dan disimpen dalam2 di lemari memori...

Damn lousy lah...Dunno lah...

kejujuran hati yg tak mungkin dapat ku pungkiri
keinginanku untuk kau tau isi hatiku
demi cinta yg tak pernah berakhir

Ga tau lah saya...Let it flow aj...

And the new life...has begun...

2005-09-30T20:20:00.000+07:00

I am in Singapore now...SMU...

But I'm not in the mood for story-telling bout my life here...Too long...

Pokokny...This blog...is...REACTIVATED

NEED SUGGESTIONS...(Happy though)

2005-07-13T18:07:00.001+07:00

Dear ERNEST FERDIAN (R05OIN1263)

Congratulations! We are delighted to offer you admission to SMU's Bachelor of Business Management programme at our Lee Kong Chian School of Business for the Academic Year 2005-06.

This opportunity to study at SMU is a privilege we offer only to applicants of high calibre as the competition to gain admission gets intense each year. Past experience shows that only one in nine applicants gets selected.

The School’s innovative and interactive pedagogical approach and her high standard of teaching excellence are the cornerstones for a stimulating and vigorous learning experience. Today, the standard or discipline-specific approach is no longer adequate in resolving profound and compelling issues. Ours is a creative and highly relevant curriculum with real-world content that encompasses the arts as well as science, technology and entrepreneurship. You'll learn from an outstanding international faculty using stimulating teaching methods that encourage participation and critical thinking.

You will also have opportunities for international exchanges and study missions. And as an elite SMU student, you have the option to pursue a double degree or a second major in any of our other courses. You can look forward to an exceptional learning experience, one that will shape your abilities and talents, and give you the edge on graduation. The SMU Edge!
See you on our new city campus!

Sincerely,
Professor David Montgomery Alan Goh Dean Director Lee Kong Chian School of Business Office of Undergraduate Admissions

Note: You have up to 17 July 2005 to accept our offer of a place at SMU. You may accept our offer online at www.smu.edu.sg (click Online Acceptance box and then select Acceptance for International Students).

HAPPY...SO HAPPY...BLISSFUL...
YET...Should I accept?? Got till Sunday to consider...
Guyz...Bonyok gw pengen bgt gw masuk ke Jepang karena di Jepang culturenya lebih modern n bagus serta ga ada ikatan kerja 3 tahun ma pemerintah like in Singapore. Kalo SMU plus poinnya itu ya Univ baru negeri gt n pasti pemerintah Singapore bakal bnr2 ngembangin. Koneksinya lebih bagus, yaitu Wharton, U Penn. Sama SMU itu bener2 hasil kerja keras gw yg jelas2 lebih memakan tenaga dari gw.
Gmn?? pLIz comment (kl baik, tlg sms ke gw saran2 kalian)...Gw bener2 bingung. Mo nurutin my very own desire ato my duty sebagai anak yang pengen nurutin bonyok. Any comment and suggestion, maybe u can start with "If I were Ernest, I would..." (sms kl bisa, telp malah lebih baek lg) will be a true help...Thx...

@ Gadink

2005-07-12T21:32:00.000+07:00

Hore...Akhirnya maen basket juga...
CAPEK PISAN EUY!!!
Dasar emg gw ny yg jarank OR...

Di sana asik dch...Emg lengkap ya Gading itu...Maen bowling murah ma Ansel,Boi,Jaw,Davin ampe tgn gw sakit. Lanjut maen billiard. Then maen d rumah Jaw2. Malemnya makan Lind's. Ketawa2 ga jelas ampe jam stgh 3 pagi. Bsknya lgs bangun jam 6. Maen basket. Seru walaupun emg gw cuma mengacaukan temen2 gw karena ke-tidakjago-an gw. Ha3. Trus ke Gadink, ntn F4 ma Davin n Feli dgn diantar Oboi for a certain reason =p. Ga nyangka d sana ktemu Angky, Dimenk, PP, Theo...Banyak bgt emg...as always...

Buat Oboi...Tabah ya...U'll find one one day...

Gw bnr2 senenk. Di sana gw dapet sepupu baru. Davin itu namanya. Cocok bgt. Kalo bercanda ma Jawa rada garink (sori Jaw...No hard feeling =p). Ma Davin itu lucu pisan. Ngeledekin logat sundanya yg lucu pisan. Ha3. Trus ngisengin Jawa. Bantuin Oboi. Pokoknya ok pisan euy. Ha3. Hope I can meet n play w/ him again one day.

CARI TUHAN...

2005-07-09T22:05:00.000+07:00

Basq bilank...
Tante Pendeta gw bilank...
JANGAN LUPA CARI TUHAN d sono nanti...

Tuh petuah menganggu gw akhir-akhir ini...Soalnya gw mulai jarank berdoa (fatal neh...)...Diikuti dengan males ke gereja krn ga cocok ma gerejanya and susa bangun pagi (what an excuse)...Dilanjutkan dengan hedonisme...Alamat kacau seh...
Waktu itu, gw ud kepikiran mo mampir di kapel pas ke CC...Eh2 lupa...

Murtad bgt ya...Somebody help...

Aku harus mulai mencari TUHAN sebelum semuanya telat neh...

Petuah2 Basq...

2005-07-05T16:38:00.000+07:00

Hmm...

-Loe kluar negeri, berarti harus hidup sebagai org sana! Bergaul ma org sana! Cari temen d sana!
-Tetep kontak ma TUHAN and FAMILY!
-1st impression, 1st spirit, 1st activeness pentink bgt...Start itu sangat pentink!
-Aktif! Banyak nanya...Semangat sbgai pelajr , bukan turis!
-Loe k sana belajar n bljr jg budayany...Jd jgn jd turis dan jgn temenan ma Indon mulu!
-Komunikasi => Bahasa!
-Brani salah krn lama2 bakal jd bener koq slama usaha!
-BELAJAR bukan TRAVELLING!
-Tanggung jawab k bonyok!
-SEMANGAT BELAJAR n Serius mengingat mahalnya biayamu!
-ONLY RELY ON YOURSELF!!!

(Ntar di-elaborate...Not in the mood, so I juz wrote this scratchy draft)

EF Awards 2005

2005-07-04T20:57:00.000+07:00

EF Awards 2005 is a special occasional awarding event which was held according to the Ernest's mood and creativity. These awards were given to the special people who had shown great effort and dedication by will or coincidence to Ernest Ferdian's life. The abstract judgement was given fairly by Ernest according to sole Ernest's memory.

Without more talking to come...Let us begin the SHOW !!!

-THE BEST COMEDY-
Nominees are:
1. Kosasih and Jason in "Koz-tronot"
2. Rei 'B' and Uzman in "B!! Ga usa nebeng!!"
3. Dona in "Donadayanti Show"
The award goes to:
KOSASIH AND JASON IN "KOZ-TRONOT"

-THE BEST ACTION-
Nominees are:
1. Yuhandi 'Barbar' in "Reverse Climbing"
2. Jati in "Lewat Kuningan dalam 2 Menit"
3. Pak Parji in "Everyday Work"
The award goes to:
PAK PARJI IN "EVERYDAY WORK"

-THE BEST INFOTAINMENT-
Nominees are:
1. Oprah Winfrey in "The Oprah Show"
2. Aming in "Ruming"
3. Tata in "Hours with Tata on The Phone"
The award goes to:
TATA IN "HOURS WITH TATA ON THE PHONE"

-THE BEST LOVE SCENE-
Nominees are:
1. Cecep and TS in "Lama Banget Jadian!"
2. Romeo and Juliet in "Romeo and Juliet"
3. Uzman and Rei in "Antara Bandung dan Jakarta"
The award goes to:
UZMAN AND REI IN "ANTARA BANDUNG DAN JAKARTA"

-THE BEST GROUP PERFORMANCE-
Nominees are:
1. "B" Gank in "Haduh!!"
2. Bintang Lux in "Siapa penumpang spesial berikutnya??"
3. OSIS CC in "Loe aj dch yang bikin! Ga, loe aj ah!"
The award goes to:
OSIS CC IN "LOE AJ DCH YANG BIKIN! GA, LOE AJ AH!"

-THE BEST UNDERWATER PERFORMANCE-
Nominees are:
1. Ariel in "Little Mermaid"
2. Kevin Costner in "Underwater World"
2. Eduin 'Duyunk' in "Mandi 1 Jam"
The award goes to:
EDUIN 'DUYUNK' IN "MANDI 1 JAM"

-THE BEST HAIR MAKE-OVER-
Nominees are:
1. Dona in "The Catox"
2. Dwi 'Tant' in "CL Forever"
3. Rei 'B' in "STD"
The award goes to:
DONA IN "THE CATOX"

-THE BEST DRAMA-
Nominees are:
1. Song Hae Gyo in "Full House"
2. Rei in "Man, Apapun Asal Gw Bole Nebenk"
3. Alvin 'Aaz' in "Percasis 2004's Crisis"
The award goes to:
ALVIN 'AAZ' IN "PERCASIS 2004 'S CRISIS"

-THE BEST KISS-
Nominees are:
1. Spiderman and Mary Jane in "Spiderman"
2. *i*i* and entah sapa itu ce-nya in "Di Mobil di Sudirman"
3. *** and *** in "Selingkuh di Jakter"
The award goes to:
*** AND *** IN "SELINGKUH DI JAKTER"

-THE BEST NARCIS SCENE-
Nominees are:
1. Cakra in "Everyday's Life"
2. Budi 'Pinggos' in "Everybody Loves Michelle Yearbook Edition"
3. Rei in "My Voice"
The award goes to:
BUDI 'PINGGOS' IN "EVERYBODY LOVES MICHELLE YEARBOOK EDITION"

-THE BEST COSTUME-
Nominees are:
1. Dona in "Donadayanti 1st Show"
2. Dona in "Dona @ Jeff's"
3. Dona in "Nico's Party"
The award goes to:
DONA IN EVERY OF HIS SHOW

-THE BEST "B" PERFORMANCE-
Nominees are:
1. Dona in "Donadayanti"
2. Tata in "Everyday's Life"
3. "B" Gank in "@ Nico's"
The award goes to:
"B" GANK IN "@ NICO'S"

-THE BEST VILLAIN-
Nominees are:
1. Procrastinating
2. Laziness
3. Too much fun
The award goes to:
ALL OF THEM AND MANY ELSE!!!

-THE BEST SOUNDTRACK-
Nominees are:
1. 'Menanti Jawaban' by Padi, recorded in Sony Studio
2. 'Pak-ketipang-ketipung' by Cigos, not recorded.
3. 'Jangan Ganggu Uzman' by Marshal and Me, recorded in TA by Ayung's HP.
The award goes to:
'JANGAN GANGGU UZMAN' BY MARSHAL AND ME

-THE BEST TRIO-
Nominees are:
1. Trio Libels, Sony Music
2. Rida Sita Dewi, Sony Music
3. Trio Fals (Me, Uzmy, and Re), Talent Box Studio
The award goes to:
TRIO FALS (ME, USMY, AND RE), TALENT BOX STUDIO

-THE BEST DUO-
Nominees are:
1. Anang and Krisdayanti in "Makin Aku Cinta"
2. Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie in "Mr&Mrs Smith"
3. Rei and Uzman in "Man...Ampun...Nebeng donk!"
The award goes to:
REI AND UZMAN IN "MAN...AMPUN...NEBENG DONK!"

-THE BEST MALE PERFORMANCE-
Nominees are:
1. Uzman in "Mbak Ros! 421587"
2. Rei in "Gw mo SPMB!"
3. Alvin in "Ketos Sialan!"
The award goes to:
ALVIN IN "KETOS SIALAN!"

-THE BEST FEMALE PERFORMANCE-
Nominees are:
1. Tata in "Miss B"
2. Bu Indra in "Nyokap"
3. Hanna in "Maafkan gw ya..."
The award goes to:
HANNA IN "MAAFKAN GW YA..."

-THE LIFETIME ACHIEVEMENT AWARDS-
The award goes to:
EVERY PERSON THAT I KNOW...MY FAMILY...FRIENDS...LOVE U ALL !!!

-THE BEST PICTURE-
Nominees are:
1. "Nebeng" by Uzman and Rei
2. "Works!" by OSIS CC
3. "6 Years" by CC
The award goes to:
EVERY PICTURE OF MY ENTIRE LIFE !!!

See you in another EF Awards 2005 (if Ernest has another mood to write another...Ha3...)
LOVE YOU ALL !!!

Farewell...Memory of all my brothers...

2005-07-02T23:06:00.000+07:00

Waktu terus berlari...
Membawa satu per satu sahabatku...
Pergi mengejar nasib...

Hari ini (2/7) gw membuka lembaran perpisahan gw. Gw pun sadar ternyata...Masa gw bareng ma sahabat-sahabat gw ud mau abiez...Satu per satu mereka pergi. Hari ini, gw ke aiport buat nganter 2 sahabat gw. Sumpe, gw hampir nangis ngeliat mreka nangis. Gonna miss u all bro...Gw pun nanti juga akan pergi. It will be a brand new page...But one thing for sure...Sahabat tak akan pernah pergi dan akan selalu ada...LOVE U ALL BRO !!!

~NICO~(Be back in March)
Nico...Congdut...Ha3...Kenal pas kelas 2 gt gara-gara Rei n Mars. Shal, loe ga salah koq, emg bener dia ke-IBU-an banget. Gw inget tiap kalo kita pergi ke brenang, dia selalu jadi yang palink belakang bwat ngecek2 supaya ga ad yg ketinggalan. Tiap kali nginep, dia selalu bilank, "Semuanya jangan berantakan!!" Kemudian pas malem2, dia selalu siap dengan ikat pinggangnya dan serbuk pala. Ha3. Kita selalu ribut ampe subuh. N akhirnya, Nico melecutkan sabuknya dan kontan kita semua langsung diam dan mengambil posisi tidur. Ha3. N then Nico yoga. Ha3. Super kocak. Inget juga dia sebagai mami jemputan. Dengan Mas Yadi dan mobil Si Mantap yang membawa kita berkeliling. Inget juga masakan2 food fiasco dari dia. Gonna miss those moments.
Hari ini (2/7) dia pergi ke Melbourne. Flight jam 6 pagi yang membuat kita semua harus bangun jam 4 pagi. Pesen terakhir Nico, "Loe jangan berantakan..." YES MAM! Ha3...Td gw hampir nangis juga ngeliat mreka yang sedang nahan air mata. OMG. Farewell ternyata segini menyesakkannya. Pas kita foto bareng bwat terakhir kalinya. Smuany maksain senyum. Mata ud berkaca-kaca. Ha3. Bnr2 tadi itu. N then begitu dia masuk ke ruang check-in. Kita cuma bisa berdiri di pinggir pintu sambil menyatakan persahabatan kita lewat lambain tangan. Inget kita terus. Inget kita. Inget semua yang ud kita ketawain bareng, kita sebelin bareng, kita gosipin bareng, kita omongin, kita lakuin bareng the "B" gank. Nico, KEEP IN TOUCH n FRIEND FOREVER !

~JASON~ (Be back in December)
Jason...Rekan sehidup semati di OSIS. 1 tahun susa bareng ngadepin permintaan sekolah yang aneh2, permintaan siswa yang susa dilaksanain. Lari sana-sini ngurus acara. Waktu itu gw pernah nginep d kamar loe. DINGIN banget. Gw tidur di antara Jason n Koz (Like being in the middle of two giants...Ha3) Waktu loe ma Koz berdua meragain "Astronot Joke" itu. Gw ngakak. Bener ngakak. Ekspresi Jason itu ga banget. Ha3. Mupeng ma Kojy gt. Ha3. Hari itu, my day was brightened because that joke !!. Kebawa terus sampe besoknya...n...ampe hari ini...
Hari ini (2/7), gw mangkal di airport ampe 5 jam buat nganter Jason. Nico jam 6 n Jason jam 12. Jason pergi dengan flight jam 12 ke San Fransisco. Gw ma Oboi ud muterin tuh terminal 2 kali, makan A&W, foto2 (Ha3), n bahkan tidur di bangku kay nan keras selama 1 jam. akhirnya bertemu dengan Jason. Hore! Gw sempet kaget waktu ngeliat Jason ma sepupunya yang masi umur 6 tahun (Aaron namanya). Aaron datenk dan minta gendong ma Jason. Jason pun gendong dia. OMG. Jason bnr2 kyk bokap (Ha3). Well, pemandangan yang jarang. Byasanya dia tampank jutek ato ketawa mupenk. Tadi itu, pas dia gendong Aaron, dia bener2 kayak kakak cowo yang super baek n kakak bgt. Serius, ga semua orang kyk gt lho. Son, u sure got something inside urself! Bener kata orang, loe tajir tapi loe bnr2 ga sombonk. Gw amazed by that. Pemandangan tadi meyakinkan gw bahwa seorang Jason bakal sukses. Kita ngasi kenang2an berupa sarung tangan yang ditandatangani bareng. Hal sama terulang. Dia masuk ke ruang check-in n kita cuma bisa ngeliat dari luar kaca. Jason, FRIEND FOREVER n KEEP IN TOUCH BRO!

(The list will go on...But I hope that our friendship would live forever)

Graduation Day '05...

2005-06-30T22:45:00.000+07:00

Masa-masa perkenalan...
Masa yang tak terlupakan...
Masa-masa perkenalan...
Masa-masa penuh kenangan...

Saat pertama bertemu...
TEMAN-TEMAN dan SAHABAT!!!

Saat pertamaku di SMA...
KANISIUS!!!
Kolese tercinta...Aaa...

Lagu itu...Ternyata emang bener2 penuh kenangan...Tadi pas Graduation Day...Acara2 awal seh bete...Formal gt...Pas trakhir2...
Kita smua berkumpul di lapangan voli...Foto2...Gila2an...Trus tiap anak megang kembang api. Ada beberapa anak yang memegang obor. Ketika lampu dimatikan, tiap kembang api dinyalakan. Pemandangan Kanisius bertabur bintang-bintang dan percikan api. Everlasting. Smuanyamenyanyikan 'Auld Lang Syne' secara bersama-sama. Suasana persaudaraan mulai kental. Satu persatu kami saling bersalaman dan berpelukan di tengah ramainya kembang api. Ketika lagu usai, convetti pun diledakkan untuk meramaikan acara. Kertas berwarna-warni memenuhi langit lapangan Kanisius. Kami menatap ke langit malam sambil tersenyum mengenang masa-masa terindah di SMA tercinta kami. Lagu pun langsung dilanjutkan dengan lagu 'Masa-Masa Perkenalan'. Kami pun tergelitik. Memori kembali berkecamuk. Bersalaman dengan sesama teman. Berpelukan untuk melepaskan.

Saudara-saudara Kanisian.
Tiap tangan yang kusalami membawaku ke masa lalu yang penuh kenangan. Tiap bahu yang kupeluk mengingatkanku akan persaudaraan ini.

Ingin rasanya kuhentikan waktu.
Agar persahabatan ini terus berlaku.
Dan persaudaraan ini bertumbuh selalu.

Saat TERAKHIRku di SMA
KANISIUS...
KOLESE TERCINTA !!!

Manusia datang dan pergi...
Tapi SAHABAT TAK AKAN PERNAH PERGI...
DAN AKAN SELALU ADA !!!

BROTHERS OF CANISIAN 'o5...KEEP IN TOUCH...AND BROTHER FOREVER !!!

Hari Belanja Uzman...

2005-06-29T21:42:00.000+07:00

Hari ini Tante Uzman sukses morotin duit bonyok sebesar 500rb dengan borosnya dalam membeli baju 126 dan sepatu Converse dalam rangka memuaskan nafsu metroseksualnya dan memenuhi lemari bajunya yang sudah seperti kapal pecah tanpa rasa khawatir dan waswas...

Gila...Kami cuman muter2 nemenin dia blnja n skalean nemenin Nic, Tant, Edwn untuk beli perlengkapan Graduation Day besok...Heqhhh...Capekny...Di tengah kebosenan dan kelelahan itu, akhirny kreatifitas kita tergelitik an menciptakan sebuah masterpiece of parodi bwat Uzman yg sempet direkam di HP Duyung...(Man berhubung ini parodi, jd jgn marah...Ha3)...Comment2 ya...

Jangan Ganggu (by Marshal n Me, inspired by Project Pop's song)

Namanya si Uzman
Banci paling preman
Tampanknya siluman
Profesi simpanan

Uu...Benci aku...
Uu...Sebel aku...
Uu...Keki aku...
Uu...BENCI!!!

Malak duit teman
Badan penuh kuman
Boros kayak setan
Suka cowo tampan

Jangan ganggu banci
Jangan ganggu banci
JANGAN GANGGU!!

CC Babies !!!

2005-06-28T23:17:00.000+07:00

Waduh...LUCUNYA!!!

Jadi tiap2 anak disuruh nyerahin foto masa kecil mreka...Ckckck...Innocent2 smua...Ha3...Ga nyangka gedeny jd liar smua...

Gw bakal melengkapi koleksi foto2 itu...Hahaha...

Ha3...Hari ini tanpa sengaja gw ma Alv jd ngerjain PP...

2005-06-27T22:58:00.000+07:00

Jadi gini...kan td itu kita latihan nyanyi ga jelas bwat Graduation Day di Aula lantai 2...Trus setelah itu, bbrp anak disuru kumpul...Jadilah si mantan ketos SIALAN itu duduk di antara gw ma PP...

Then...Few things happened...

Kan gw crita ma Aaz bout pengalaman d Centro (refer to my previous post)...Trus PP dgn tampank ngeselin (ga tau ya...tp koq gw nangkepny dia kyk mendespise gt) nanya, "Hah?? Nest, loe cipok2an??"...Gw rada2 risih ma tampangny...Gw jwb aj iya...ma Alvin...Hmm, entah ini cuma gw doank ato emg bener trnyata PP anakny ga sebaek yg gw duga...But who cares lah...

Trus...Alvin mungkin lg birahi tinggi...Dia...dia...(Aku tak menyangka..Ha3...) Dia tiba2 nyentuh idung PP pake jariny...Out of sudden gt...Trus bilang, "Idung loe koq mancung ya??"...Gw kaget. dia melakukan itu...PP lebih shock lg!! Tampank kagetny PP itu...Ha3...Bikin gw mo ngakak...Kagetny itu yg seakan2 antara percaya dan tidak percaya...Hyahyahya...PP diem ga berkata ap2 gr kaget...Gw nahan ketawa...Alvin merasa tidak ad ap2...Ha3...( Lihat Rei!! Makany jgn nyela gw mulu...Dia ga sesempurnya as u think Re!!..Hmm, jd start thinkin that Alvin was a Bsex...Hyahyahya...Jokin2...)

Trus yg trakhir...Kan as usual gw ma Alv brantem ga jelas, tonjok2an, tabok2an...Hyahyahya...Gw liat reaksi PP...Ngeliat seakan2 hal itu lucu...Then, wkt gw nahan tangan Alvin supaya berhenti memukul (kan jd kelihatan kyk pegangan tangan tuh)...Trus kita salink menatap sambil jari bergerak2...Sambil sok2 pasang tampank Aming yg lg napsu (Hyahyahya...)...N reaksi PP...Ha3...Dia melototin tangan kita sambil terbelalak...Dgn reaksi kaget, ga percaya, mencibir...Ha3...Trus dia ngeliatin kita sambil pasank tampank jijik...Ha3...Super kocak...(Bwat yg baca, harap dicatet bahwa smuany kejadian di atas bukanlah suatu bentuk kemesraan tp hanya kesalahpahaman atas usaha menghentikan pertengkaran lebih lanjut antara gw ma mantas ketos SIALAN itu)...

PP...maap ya...Moga2 loe ga mikir yg engga2...Ha3...Bwat Re n Uzman, jgn comment yg aneh!!

Malem bersimbah dosa...

2005-06-27T21:48:00.000+07:00

Hasratku...
Menggiringku ke tempat kegelapan...
Dimana semua menjadi layak...
Dalam pelepasan nafsu dunia...

Maren itu gw kan dateng k partyny Nico...Wuidi...Donadayanti menggebrak panggung...Bnr2 parah...Salute to Dona...Gw bingung, napa bnyk temen2 gw yg mencibir...Ya, natural seh mencibir hal2 smacam waria show gt...Cuman kan, everybody has their own right to do things they want in their life...Mind own business aj lah, ngapain ngurusin kehidupan org laen...Ya ga seh??!...Tiap org punya jln hidup sendiri2...Slama ga mengganggu sesama, ya hormatin donk hak itu!!

Then malemny kita lanjut...

Kakiku...
Menapaki tanah penuh dosa...
Jalan penuh maksiat...
Berujung di surga dunia...

Kita lanjut ke Centro d Dharmawangsa...Stlh muter2 nyari club, akhirny kita ke Centro (Gw,Uzman as our nite tour guide, Re, Mars, Edwin, Tant)..Di sana lagi Gay Night...Huahuahua...Parah dch...Tp kita senenk soalny gara2 itu kita jadi bayar lebih murah...Buat co2, cover chargeny didiskon 15 rb perak...Lumayan hemat kan...Huahuahua...N kita masuk dch...

Mataku...
Melihat dosa-dosa dunia...
Menjajah aura sekitar...
Melahap wajah gelap dari dunia modern...

Gila, ternyata Gay Night itu kyk gitu toh...Cipok sana sini dgn berbagai style...Dempet2an nafsu gt...Trus alkohol kita...Ad yg segelas bareng, sampe ad jg yg disiramin ke mulut orang...Jedag jedug jedag jedug...Smuany dance kyk org kesetanan...Some mabok...Some sambil French Kiss...Gay-gay itu ternyata ga smuany kyk tukang salon, waria...Ada juga yg cogan2 modis gt yg pasti bikin klepek2 ce2 d skulny...Hmm...Dunia emg luas banget ya...

Tubuhku...
Tertelan gelombang rhythm...
Bergerak melepaskan semuanya...
Sampai tak sanggup lagi melepas...

Lidahku...
Merasakan tetes demi tetes...
Rasa dari kegelapan...
Hingga kelu tak bergerak...

Tanganku...
Meliar tak terkendali...
Melawan gemerlapnya cahaya...
Menantang semangat yang ada...

Hahaha...Pokokny puas dch dugemnya...Kita br pulank jam 3...Untung kita dateng ber-grup, jd ga dicolek2...Katany seh gw diliatin ma bbrp co di sana, tp gw ndiri ga nyadar...Hyaaaaa...Serem ya...

Keringatku...
Membasahi keletihanku...
Menjadi jejak...
Jejak langkahku...

(Hmm...Koq kyk tulisan Andrey Aksana ya, I hope not...Do I have talent in making lust novel??...Ha3...)...Comment2 ya...

Huahuahua...Extravaganza emg TOPH...

2005-06-25T22:11:00.000+07:00

"Neng...Neng keliatan lelah sekali..."
"Hah??...Bener...Abang koq tau???"
"Tau donk...Kan Neng lari-lari dalam mimpi Abang semalem..."
(Sapa seh yg bikin script Extravaganza??...Salute!!)

Hyahyahya...Think it gonna be popular, especially when the FBC (Funny Boy Club) take a notice bout it...

Hmm...Selaen Tora, ternyata ad juga aktor co yg keren juga maenny...Rafqi Ahmad/Akbar (Lupa namany..pokokny yg maen Malin Kundang ma Desy Ratnasari...)...He will have his debut in cinema soon I guess...Tp tetep Aming yg palink TOPH...Huahuahua...

Bsk...HEPI BDAY NICO!!!...Donadayanti siap menggebrak panggung dch!!

Bentar lagi Graduation Day...

2005-06-24T19:21:00.000+07:00

Life is rolling...
Time is flying...
Memory is floating...

Ga terasa 6 tahun berlalu d CC...Banyak bgt yg gw alami n make me into what I am now...Banyak jg org yg gw kenal, maen brg, ketawa brg, n then lost contact w/ some of them...Ad juga yg terus nemenin ampe SMA...

People come and go...
Enter and leave...

Temen2 gw...Sahabat2 gw...Sodara2 gw...Gw kdng2 takut kl bakal lost contact...Soalny it is not easy to maintain contact with all people...Hmm, kakak kelas gw melakukan apa ya bwat maintain contact??...Any suggestion??...I want to cherish my acquintances w/ all my friends by living those...Pokokny KEEP IN TOUCH and FRIEND FOREVER !!!

Nevertheless, friendship will remain and stay in our heart...

People...Born differently...Live differently...Then being treated differently...

2005-06-22T22:38:00.000+07:00

World...Narrow-minded...
Lucu ya...Each person was born with his/her own unique characteristic..I believe that in every person there are the upside and also the downside..Balancing theory itu lah...

But...

Dunia ga berjalan semulus itu..Mass Perception..Itu membuat smuany sounds unfair..Contoh:

Ad seorang yg senenk nyanyi popular music..Then ad jg yg senenk klasik..2-2ny senenk manggung..But krn musik pop merupakan musik yg lebih bagus untuk dinikmati (mnrt mass perception)..Jadilah tawaran manggung jatuh ke si pop itu mulu..Semntara si klasik nyanyi di kamar mandi (kacian dch!!)..Pdhl 2-2ny kan sama2 brusaha...

Ad temen gw..Yg satu jago basket n cogan rame gt..Yg satu jago musik n byasa2 aj..Ga salah donk, emg kan tiap org punya interestny ndiri2..Tp trnyata hal itu membuat hidup mreka berbeda..Si basket, surrounded by people who want 2 b his friend..Ad aj yg ngajak ngobrol..Ad juga yg selalu siap ngbantu..Singkatny, POPULER dah!!
N then another fellow...Si musik ini..Dikit bgt yg ngajak ngobrol, kalo ngobrol pun ya yg basa-basi abiz gt..Boro2 ad yg nolongin, ud syukur kl ad yg mo deketin..

Yg lebih ekstrem lagi, kalo ud berhubungan dgn PENAMPILAN!!..Ga usa dicritain, pasti loe smua ud pernah tau dr sekeliling loe gmn perbedaan perlakuan thd org cakep dgn org (sori) tampank pas2an...Jahat emg..Tapi..THAT'S LIFE...

Hmm...seandainy smua org bisa melihat DIVERSITY dgn lebih jelas..Bukankah setiap hal yg ad, BAIK ato BURUK, itulah yg membuat dunia ini LENGKAP dan INDAH...

Gw ini...Gmn seh!!!

2005-06-21T21:14:00.000+07:00

Gw ini...
ga suka baca koran!!
ga suka nonton brita!!
...
jd cengok dch!!!

Gw ini...

males2an!!

procrastinatin!!

...

jd ketinggalan smua dch!!!

Many things I should change neh...

Start now...Have to !!!

World's Greatest by my idol!!

2005-06-19T22:02:00.000+07:00

World's Greatest
by R. Kelly (Damn!!..Why do u always get remarkable songs?!!)

( Who´s the worlds greatest....
Who´s the worlds greatest..
The worlds greatest...)

I am a mountain
I am a tall tree ohh..
I am a swift wind sweepin the country
I am a river down in the valley ohh..
I am a vision and I can see clearly
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall
Look em in the face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey I made it
Mmm..
I'm the world's greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it
Mmm..
I'm the world's greatest

I am a giant
I am an eagle ooh..
I am a lion
Down in the jungle
I am a marchin band
I am the people ooh
I am a helpin hand..
I am a hero
Ohh..
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall
Look em in the face and say

I´m that star up in the sky
I´m that moutain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I´m the world´s greatest
I´m that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it
Mmmm...
I´m the world´s greatest

In the ring of life, I'll rein love (I will rein)
And the world will notice a king (Oh Yahh..)
When there is darkness I'll shine a light (Shine a light..)
And you'll use the success you'll find in me (Meee..)

I'm that star up in the sky (oohhhhh)
I'm that mountain(peak up high)peak up high
Hey I made It (I said I made it)
I'm the worlds greatest( I'm that little bit)
I'm that little bit of hope (ohhhhhhohhhh)
When my back's against the ropes (when my back's against the ropes)
I can feel it( I can feel it)
I'm the worlds greatest
oooohhhhhhhhhhh (2x)

I saw the light
At the end of a tunnel
Believe in the pot of gold
At the end of the rainbow
And faith was right there
To pull me through, yeah
Used to be locked doors
Now I can just walk on through
It´s the greatest
Can you feel it
Say the greatest
Can you feel it

I saw the light
At the end of a tunnel
Believe in the pot of gold
At the end of the rainbow
And faith was right there
To pull me through, yeah
Used to be locked doors
Now I can just walk on through
Hey, uh, hey, hey, hey, yeah
It´s the greatest
I´m that star up in the sky

Today...

2005-06-19T21:27:00.000+07:00

Today...

Nothing happen...Wat a simple life I have...

Bnyk sbnrny simple things yg mo gw tulis..Tp sumhow rasany super males..Liburan ini killing me slowly neh...Gw nonton RO The Animation this whole week..Di situ ad scene where one said:

"You were hated by them because you hated them..."

Stared at that..Ha3..Damn right..You will never be loved unless you love...

Lagi terngiang2...Anyone know this song??

2005-06-18T22:26:00.000+07:00

Close to You
Carpenters

Why do birds
Suddenly appear?
Everytime you are near
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Why do stars
Fall down from the sky?
Everytime you walk by
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

(*) On the day that you were born
The angels got together and decided
To create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
Of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue

(**) That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Repeat (*)
Repeat (**)

Just like me
They long to be
Close to you
Woo...

Close to you...

Close to you...

2005-06-18T22:00:00.000+07:00

Close to you...
It's all I wanna say...
(Close to you by Carpenters)

Itu lagu terngiang2 hari ini...N makes me re-remember 'incident bajaj' (damn u Miss B)...Aplg dgn pemandangan2 malam minggu d Pelangi...

O ya...Gw malem2 d Pelangi coz nonton Electone Festival which was boring coz the theme was classic...I expect pop impressionist like last year...

These days, nothing special occured..Juz other lazy days..Spending my time in front of RO The Animation..Geezzz, sloth!!

O ya..'Incident Bajaj'..That's pretty special..Ha3..Damn u once again Miss B!!..Argh, this is holiday and I have time to mind-wandering...

Duh, sumbody, help me to fill my day donk!!

Lately...

2005-06-13T21:41:00.000+07:00

Lately koq gw males ngeblog ya...
Males jg bwat ngapa2in...Duh...
Harus cari semangat baru neh !!!

Hari ini nonton Amytistville Horror (sori kl spellingny ms sala =p) LAAGHEE !!
Hih..Pdhl rencana nonton Mr n Mrs Smith...Trus terjadi kudeta dan beralihlah ke pelem nan serem itu lagi...
Didi aka Lukas...He3...Kpn2 nonton lg yuk...Kaget2an ny seru...Ha3...Berhubung gw ud nonton tuh pelem, gw jd tau bagian2 kagetny itu seperti apa dan kapan...Jadilah gw merealisasikanny ke Lukas..Wkt ad hantu di samping wajah anak kecil, gw tempelin tangan gw yg dingin ke muka Lukas...Alhasil dia treak...Ha3...Many more dch...Thx Di ud membuat kali kedua gw nonton itu menjadi tidak membosankan...Ha3...

Eh2..td katany ga ad semangat..koq nulisny bnyk gini??!!?!...Ckckck...Bsok mo nginep d Puncak neh...Hahaha...

Thx Evan...

2005-06-12T20:47:00.000+07:00

Hari ini ditraktir Evan makan d Hanamasa n nonton pelem horror (The Amythistville Horror...sori kl spellingny sala)...Najonk serem bgt tuh pelem !!!...

Hmm..nothing special seh hari ini...

Hari ini I'm totally bored again !!!

2005-06-11T11:21:00.000+07:00

Padahal masi pagi2 neh...Menyadari gw ga ad kerjaan, gw lgs lemes...

Argh !! Gmn donk...Apa ikut Indodol aj ya?? Ha3...

Sumhow gw kepikiran pengen maen basket neh...Pengen belajar basket lg...Duh !!! Tapi sama sapa??

Journey to HERO...

2005-06-10T22:48:00.000+07:00

Hari ini...gw,Mars,Tant,Raymond,n Edwin merantau ke Hero...Kami ke sana demi satu tujuan...dengan satu hati...dalam satu jiwa...

Bukan belanja...
Bukan nyobain barang gratisan kyk biasany (He3...jd malu)...
Bukan duduk2 ga jelas...

Tapi...

Spesial demi NGELIAT BUNGKUS SABUN LUX YANG BARU !!!

OMG...Cakep2...Ad Tamara (my fav), Febby, Dian Sastro, n Mariana...
Kita penasaran siapa seh ce berbaju ijo itu...N pengen liat jelas secakep apa mreka...N akhirny kita dch spesial k sana...He3...Co2 ga jelas ya...Ha3...Masa SMA emg ok...Apalagi plus ce2 cuuuannntikkk...

Ya ud dch kita kluar lg setelah ribut2 di lorong sabun...Untung ga ditangkep...Soalny kita heboh bandingin2 mana yg palink cakep...Perbedaan pendapat pun diikuti oleh perdebatan sengit...Kami berhenti karena tiba2 kami merasa bahwa...Mereka smua emg cantik !!!

Ha3...Kenangan SMA yg lucu !!!

Argh...Darn interview !!!

2005-06-09T18:13:00.000+07:00

Argh...

Barusan interview by phone dengan SMU..I should say I hate my performance..He asked bout my reason for picking SMU..Grr,my answer was all jumbled mumbled..I wasn't ready !!..They told me that they were going to call me at 4 pm..But, they did it at 4.50, when I was in the middle of daily gossip w/ Re..Darn!!Damn!!..I prepared my mind before..When the clock showed 4.30, I thought the interview was gonna b rescheduled..So I loosened my mind and called Re..Then out of my expectation, they called..

My beginning of interview was horrible..Then I did a bit improvement..But then the question went tougher..They asked bout Corby's case and bout SBY performance..I gave them standard answer..I was look so damn stupid that time !!..Argh..

What bothering so much was the fact that my spoken English was far below my expectation..I dunno, maybe because I used it less these days or I was a bit unprepared that time..Darn!!Spoken English was way different then reading or writing in English..My analytical ability was proven poor because I gave them standard comments..I should've given them better answer !!

Do u think that I should read more news and article to sharpen my analytical ability??
Do u think that spoken English could only be practiced by speaking it, not only reading and writing sth in English?? How to improve my spoken English neh??
Comment dunkz...Thx..

Girls...WOW...

2005-06-09T12:11:00.000+07:00

Juz saw the new Lux ads...OMG...Tamara,Mariana,Febby, n one more girl...What a view...Glamourous beauty...Breathtakin...

O ya...N bout Amon...Damn!! She is a workaholic eh?? Juz finished shooting in Shanghai n soon will do another shooting in Taiwan...No wonder coz her motto: Procrastination won't deliver a success !!

Her word struck deeply..Shot !! Many things I should change then from myself...

Hi3...Pengalam lucu d rumah Nico...N SMU...

2005-06-07T20:00:00.000+07:00

Maren gw nginep @ Nicongdut's...Terletak di bilangan Tanjung Duren...Bersama Mars,Re,Tant,Edwin,Didi,n Boi (moga2 dia ga diapa2in Nico)..Setelah dari skul, kita berenang2 di TA (+Fileas n Richard)..Dan tetap diakhiri dengan sesi foto..Trus kita makan d Canton Bay berhubung lagi harga promosi..Pesenny ribut,makanny berantakan,bayarny pada a mo rugi n bayar sendiri2 ampe mbakny bingung..Emg cina2 pelit (maaf ya Tan, tp loe tetep kita masukkan krn loe itu termasuk yg pelit =p)..Berikutnya kita jalan2 sebentar dan akhirnya berlabuh d Kondo Nico..Di sana sesi rekaman n..Sesi khusus bwat Bo-i..
Malemny, berhubung ga jelas, kita jd sok2 sesi meditasi...Eh2 ujung2ny malah jd sesi curhat dmn kita mengenang masa2 senenk2 kita d SMA..Diterangi cahaya lilin temaram, kita semua sharing dan menenangkan diri..Eh2, malah ad yg nangis..Kocak dch..Habis kita berdoa bersama bwat masa depan n bbrapa temen yg lagi USM ITB..

Trus kita nonton VCD Zoolander..Tapi tengah2 ud pada ngantuk..

Cuit2..Pagi yang indah telah tiba..Sayangny ada dua org B yg lagi buru2 mo BTB..Ya ud dch, kita nungguin kyk org bego d rumah..Donlod2 n nonton Hellboy..Ga jelas abiez tuh pelem..Akhiny 2 org B dtg dan kita segera melaju ke CL..Di sana cm bentar seh..Liat obralan tas Convese 10,000 lgs smuany beli..Trus wkt makan d Ichiban Sushi..Ocha kan free flow tuh, jadiny pesen satu ocha bwat ber-2..Hemat mnrt mreka..Ha3..

Bwat Oboi..Tenang aj..Itu maren blom final..Loe emg masi hrs berjuang lebih keras lagi..Tenang ya Boi..Kita smua ad bwat ngebantu sebisa kita..Count on us !!

Btw, maren itu jg gw ditelp SMU..Mreka ngajak janjian (ca e la) interview..So, wis me luck besok...

Ga ad kerjaan...

2005-06-03T11:37:00.000+07:00

Br hari kedua libur...Gw ud kena sindrom liburan !!!
Ga ad kerjaan !!!

Duh...Am I a workaholic??

I Need An Angel (by Ruben Studdy)

2005-06-01T19:17:00.000+07:00

I Need An Angel

I've run out of answers
I've run out of time
I'm so confused that I'm losing my mind
It's gonna take a miracle to help me this time
I'm traveling a road that has not one sign

Help me, have mercy for me
Set my soul free
And let the bell in my heart ring, oh
This my cry, hey, this is my plead you see

I need an angel, I'm callin' an angel
Send me an angel down, ohh
I need an angel, callin' an angel
Send me an angel down

I'm carrying a load that's too heavy for me
I've nowhere to go so I'm down on my knees
I'm tryin to see the forest, but there's this one tree
I can't understand why I'm sinking so deep

Help me, have mercy
Won't you have mercy
Set my soul free
And let the bell in my heart ring
Oooohh, this my cry mmm, this is my plead

I need an angel, I'm callin' an angel
Send me an angel down(Send it all down)
I need an angel, callin' an angel
Send me an angel down(Send it all down)

Oh something inside of me, tellin me the morning will come (morning will come), yes it will
sometimes it's hard to face the truth so we run (we run)
God if you care at all please don't let me fall by the wayside, oh no
Please be my guide , would you light my path ( light my path)
Take me, shape me, mold me , change me, teach me, fill me, save me

I need an angel, I'm callin' an angel
Send me an angel down(Send it all down)
(Repeat)

Hari trakhir skul...

2005-06-01T18:34:00.000+07:00

Hr ini scara fungsional, sekolah brakhir...UAN telah slese...Tp ga tau napa ga ad gregetny, vibe (bahasa Paula Abdul)-nya...Mungkin gara2 UAN math ny cukup susa...ato...kita emg ud mati rasa aj krn ud 14 thn sekolah...

Anw, akhirny jaket beres...Walopun tetep distro, at least kita punya data angka yg bisa dijadiin pertanggungjawaban...

Trus td bingung2 mo ke Dufan...Emg pada dudul...Tiba2 jd males smua...Batal dch (ud diduga seh sebelumny)...Akhir gw ma Re ke PS. Di sana kita nyari2 model bwat jaket distro. Ad yg keren gt d Red Herring. Hmm, coba annti diusahakan. Basicly seh kenangan itu bukan ad d jaket tp d hati dan temen2 (at least for me)...

Di PS, kami makan d food court. Re, si pelit, ga mo membagi tempurany...Pdhl I watched over his tempura all lunch !!. Trus puter2 Metro ma Sogo liat2 distro mahal. Cenderung simple seh kl bwat co ya. Trus kita ke Kino. Ga ad particularly interesting book seh. Trus ke BakerzIn. Pusink milihnya he3...Pengen beli smua. Akhirny beli 3 n ternyata..bungkusny keren!! Kotak gt plus pita. Ckckck, modal amat ya. Trus pulank dch.

Ampe rumah, makan cake cookies n creme. Cheese cake basicly, jd rada eneg. Trus bobok. N bangun2 badan gw terasa panas. Ga enak gt. Ga tau dch. Males bgt. Habis ini mo ngurusin jaket.

Anw, gw pengen bljr jd org dewasa neh...

- UAN -

2005-05-31T18:14:00.000+07:00

Sekuel dari My Reviews...

UAN...is in the show...Hope everything is gonna be just wonderful...

Day 1:

Not really nice...My guessings are different from the majority's...I dunno coz until now I'm thinking that my answers are perceptible by logic and that's what I learned...Well, lets the government decide...

Tp gw smakin males jadiny...Sakit itu kembali lg...Well, kyk fisika seh, td itu kan gw menjawab mnrt pikiran n nalar gw...Ga tau ah...Better not thinking bout it n march forward...Bsides, kykny mslh ini hanya d gw...Tak bisa mengakui kl nilai gw lagi take a deep downfall...

Day 2:

Better...

Day 3:

Disastrous...Tak menyangka sesulit itu...Target: >6...Amen...

Jacket lagi....Auw !!!...Penindasan suara !!!

2005-05-31T12:21:00.000+07:00

Jacket dimasalahin lagi !!!

Critanya itu, kemaren diadakan voting...Mo jaket biasa ato distro...

Pertimbangan u/ jaket biasa:

Modelny lebih awet, ga musiman kyk distro...
Smua org bs make, baik gendut maupun kurus...
Selerany lebih umum n bnyk yg suka...
Sebagai barang memoar, kan harus abadi dan universal (modelny masi bisa dipake bwat 20 thn mendatang dan smuany bisa pake ga peduli bentuk tubuhnya !!!)
Karakteristik CC dari taun ke taun...Ga ngikutin digit ato rapper2...

Pertimbangan u/ distro:

Model zaman sekarang...
Funky...
(Pdhl distro itu cenderung bodyfit, n org2 gendut ud menyatakan ga bisa pake yg begituan...Yg ga gendut2 tp ga suka, menyatakan modelny musiman, 10 thn lg bakal disimpen d gudang)

Tp yg ngeselin...kan diadain voting...Critanya bwat nentuin mana yg dipilih mayoritas...Hasilny ga fair !!!...Keputusan bukan keputusan kelas tapi keputusan ketua kelasnya !!!...Ketua kelasny ga nanya2in kelasny tp nurutin kemauan dia ndiri...

Bukannya bawel...tp kan kasian, bwat yg ga bisa pake distro...Ini kan jaket u/ smua...Mending bikin jaket yg bisa dipake ma smua, bukan cm segelintir org...Apalagi alasannya gara2 ud punya lah, ngikutin trend sekarang lah...Kykny ga worthed dch kl bikin distro...

Dunno lah...

Yeeeee...Masa balik lg ke distro.....

2005-05-30T13:20:00.000+07:00

Jaket angkatan...WTF lah...

Balik2 ke distro...Katany hasil voting...Tp ga ad voting2ny at all tuh setau gw...
Ya...once again...suara kaum2 'gaul' menang...Pdhl kan kasian jg yg endut2 jd ga bisa make jaket distro bodyfit gt...Memang penting 2 b vocal ya...

Moga2 bisa diatur dch jd smcam training, byar ga terlalu bodyfit...

Duh...Gw malah mikirin jaket...N makin males bljr...

2005-05-28T18:53:00.000+07:00

Gmn neh...UAN makin deket !!!

N gw malah mikirin jaket...

Seharian muter2 ma Rei nyari inspirasi. Habis itu ma bokap. Ampe akhrinya gw jenuh ndiri n gw bikin ndiri aj. Liat aj nanti. Moga2 disetujui. Kala kaga ya cari org lain sana !!!

Gw ud buka buku. Tp ga fokus. Bnr2 ancur. Males bgt neh. Gila. Ampun. Malem ini HARUS BELAJAR !!!

Re...B...

2005-05-28T18:38:00.000+07:00

B...apakah benar gw in loph??

Memang dia unik...
Memang dia ok...
Memang dia bisa bikin gw sebel tp tetep mengagumi dia...
Memang dia bisa bikin gw marah dan benci tp tetep senenk dan nyaman...
...

B (Re, berhubung terlalu bnyk B d sekeliling gw)...Apakah...
Apakah...
Apakah...

Apakah gw sudah menanamkan hal 'itu' ke loe lg ??
Ha3 =p...

Gini...Re berusaha membuat gw jadian ma satu org...Dia PD bgt bisa ngelakuinnya...Gw tantang dch...B, wkt loe tinggal bntr lg neh...

Ha3...Bwat yg ga ngerti, ga usah ngerti...Krn ini cuma kegilaan Rei...

Inget ya...kl gagal...
Loe traktir gw !!!...
And you will B !...Ha3...

Jaket Angkatan sialan !!!

2005-05-27T18:47:00.000+07:00

Repot dch...Ad yg mau ini...Ad yg mo itu...

Bawel !!!

Bodo ah...kombinasiin aj smuany...Liat sekocak ap !!!

Graduation Day...

2005-05-26T20:01:00.000+07:00

Jaket distro?? OMG...Norak n murahan kalo gw bilank...Kykny jangan dch kalo jaket kenang2an kita brupa jaket distro...Kurang pantes...

Anw, okokny bwat grad day ini ya...seperti motto mami Hau...
'Yang terjadi terjadilah'...Ha3...Yg penting lulus n dapet univ bagus...

My 1st 18...

2005-05-25T17:29:00.000+07:00

Hmm...

Dihabiskan dgn begadang nonton The Ring 2 (Laghee???!!!)...Bangun pagi dgn ngantuk sarapan nasi uduk super pedas...Trus skul ga jelas n syuting pelem kelas...Setelahny, mengambil kado dr Na n Miss B...
Kita joging tuh dr depan pertigaan ampe apartemen mreka coz kita kelewatan belokannya...Ha3...Gw ma Re jd olahraga pagi dch d Senen...
Habis itu, the tough part, memenuhi mimpi bonyok dgn pergi ke Summitmas untuk ngisi forms APU...Ya ud lah...
Trus byur2 brenang senang d TA didahului oleh makan...Then pulank ngeblog dch...Ntar malem kykny maen neh...Ha3...Nest bljr dunkz...

Anw, smoga sekiranya NTU memilih mreka yg memang sungguh layak...

My 18th party...

2005-05-24T21:57:00.000+07:00

Hihihi...

Sukses lah...Rame kyk kawinan...Ha3...
Senenk dapet kado...
Tapi biayanya...Bikin melotot...
Tapi lagi...Ya sudahlah...

Hmm2...OK koq...

Kapan2 ya party2 lagi...Uzman n Re party gih !!!

He3...Today is wonderful...

My seventeen...

2005-05-23T15:30:00.000+07:00

Hari ini hari terakhir dalam usia 17 ku...
Dan hari ini dihabiskan dengan:

Bangun pagi dengan malasnya.
Di sekolah ngobrol n maen2 doank (maklum, guruny jg ud ga konsen ngajar).
Stress mikirin budget besok...Argh...
Numpang duduk d Muhammadyah tapi makan bekal dari rumah =p.
Terima order dr Aaz (bwat bikin jaket angkatan)
Males2an d sofa.
Maen PS2 (Dynasti Warriors 5 tepatnya).
Nonton Ceriwis, Versus, Cinta Paulina, Swan Princess di tipi (Ibu2 bgt).
Ngeblog (right now...)
Nanti bakal dilanjutkan dengan nonton Full House dan Extravaganza (Aming jd Cleopatra...Ha3...Liat trailerny gw ud ngakak...)
Habis itu minta restu ma bonyok (restunya berupa uang sejumlah *,* jt bwat bsk)
Bobok n berdoa terima kasih.

Kayaknya nothing special..Yang palink berbeda adalah nerima order ma mikirin bwat budget bsk...Serasa hari2 biasa...

When I take a glance back...

2005-05-23T15:28:00.000+07:00

Hmm...Setahun ini gw ngapain aja ya...

Party traktir nonton 'The Day After Tomorrow' d EX.
Trima rapot kelas 2 (Nyesek bgt...N gw bljr kl gw ini ga boleh sombonk).
Jadi anak didik Bu Indra d 3E (Nyokie bgt tuh guru emg..).
Menyadari kl gw ini ud mo kuliah (Pusink bgt tuh milih jurusan...)
TOEFL prep n tests.
SAT prep n tests.
Menang Lomba Logo Tekol (Horeee !!!).
Menyadari minat seni visual gw...Hmm...Kepikiran bwat jd karier jg, tp itu liat where life takes me to lah...
Ikut les Oom Daniel bwat NTU.
Ikut RV buat NTU.
Ditolak oleh NUS.
Dibikin menanti hingga tua oleh NTU (Up to the time this blog was written, there was still no confirmation from NTU OAD..).
Merasa sedih gara2 ditolak NUS.
Mid Semester 2 jebol demi NTU.
Apply and in waiting for SMU.
Dapet Rits APU.
Brantem trus ma Aaz.
1st time to Hard Rock...He3...Thx Tante...
Banyak lagi...Trlalu bnyk u/ dituliskan...
Ngeblog ini...
Siap2 bwat traktir bsok...Hahaha...

Hmm...Setahun yang penuh kejadian juga sebenarnya...Well, tiap tahun emang pasti penuh kejadian juga seh...Pokokny say no to a boring life...I am gonna make my upcoming years more and more colorful with awesome brand new wisdom, success, and happiness...

I am seventeen going on eighteen...

2005-05-23T15:14:00.000+07:00

Saya sudah dewasa ya...(secara administratif)...
Pdhl...tampang gw ms kayak anak2...
Tingkah laku n pikiran apalagi...

Usia 18 masi pantes ga seh nungguin pelem kartun depan tv...
Umur 18 masi cocok ga seh rebutan ma adek bwat sapa yg duluan baca komik baru...
18 tahun masi layak ga seh menunggu bel pulsek bwat meneruskan game PS2...

KEDEWASAAN adalah SOMETHING YANG LAHIR DARI PENGALAMAN dan BUKAN DARI UMUR SEMATA...

Pusink...

2005-05-22T21:04:00.000+07:00

Serasa hati ingin merengkuh semua...
Setiap bagian dari kepingan persahabatan...

Ingin aku bersama mereka...
Teman-temanku semua...

Apa daya hati menjerit...
Bila kocek ikut menjerit...

Aku...Aku...Aku telah menyakitimukah??

2005-05-21T17:41:00.000+07:00

Uzman...Tante...

Apakah...Apakah aku telah membuatmu terluka??
Aku...Aku...Aku tak tahu...
Uzmyi (Kl Re prefer pake akhiran 'ee => Uzmee')...

Apakah...Apakah...

Apakah kau sudah makan Ji En??

(Lho...Koq jd adegan itu...Ckckck...)

He3...Thx ya bwat lagu2 nya...Ma CD ny...

Gw ini ud umur 18 tp ms kyk anak2 gini...

Gimana dounk ??